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Rafael Ramirez is a tyrant. (firstposition) wrote in gooseberry,
@ 2016-12-01 11:36:00

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The post of a million wards.
Is everyone happy with their patronus?

[Warded to Wes]

Are you in the mood to talk about the incident when you were camping?

[Warded to Sun-mi]

How are you feeling? Is it okay for me to ask?

[Warded to Ravi]

Do you want to talk about what happened or have you already bottled it up and buried it?

[Warded to Cecil]

Cecil, I hate to ask you for favors, because I know how busy you are. However, I need your help with something.

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	Rafael/Sun-mi firstposition 2016-12-01 10:07 pm UTC (link)
	[Also entirely in Spanish from here on out.] We didn't decide. Rico adopted him and I couldn't let him be eaten alive by my brother's ego. Now we're stuck with him. (I say this with all the affection in the world.) That makes it sound like [...] your feelings here might be complicated. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Rafael/Sun-mi henshinyo 2016-12-01 10:55 pm UTC (link)
	Are you sure it's too late to send him back? (Kidding, kidding.) He's the dearest friend that I've made since coming here and I hate that everything feels strange when I'm around him now. It's just made me wonder a little. If Rico hadn't been around? Would things be different? I don't know. Ah. I'm probably echoing all sorts of thoughts you've had before. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Rafael/Sun-mi firstposition 2016-12-02 01:47 pm UTC (link)
	I know you two will figure this out, even if it takes a little longer than you want it to. Nothing's going to get between you, not even an uncomfortable afternoon spent making out. [...] I'm almost certain it would be. Ravi wouldn't be stuck on this stupid "I don't date" bullshit, for one. Are you interested in Ravi? Dating him, I mean. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Rafael/Sun-mi

henshinyo
2016-12-02 05:40 pm UTC (link)

I wouldn't call the afternoon itself uncomfortable, but that's part of the problem?

[...] I'm not good at dating. And Ravi is not like Etta and even though he's too sweet not to try, things would never go back to how they were before if [...] you know. I don't really think it's worth risking losing his friendship just because he happens to be very handsome and enjoyable to make out with.

[...] Ah, this is so weird to even be talking about. How did you deal with [...] this last year?

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Rafael/Sun-mi

firstposition
2016-12-04 12:42 pm UTC (link)

I dealt with it by... [...]

I don't know, it's a little generous to say I "dealt" with it. I hadn't been broken up with Quinn for that long, and Ravi was doing his supportive friend thing that pulled me right in. When he kissed me in LARP, I was furious, because I wanted it. But I thought he was only attracted to me because I was the closest thing to my brother he was ever going to get. I accused him of trying to make me a replacement, and told him I wasn't straight, and that I wasn't going to let us be one another's rebound.

But I was wrong. The truth is he was never actually interested in me at all. He was just playing the stupid game. I got to enjoy two blows to my ego over the course of about fifteen minutes. First I thought I was just a stand in for Ricardo, and then I realized that I wasn't even that.

So, I got over him by being thoroughly humiliated. I recommend you try something else.

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