Josie didn't even notice Jack's hand tightening on her, she was still practically numb to any form of pain. She heard Jack's words and she felt each syllable slowly chip away at the block that she had put up.
"Bu...But Alan had been acting weird, I shouldn't have asked him to move in with me, it was too much, Toni warned me, I shouldn't of. He felt trapped that's why he did it, it's my fault. He's gone because of me. All our plans are ruined. There is going to be no marriage, no job, no children, no nothing, no future. I have nothing to live for anymore, my future is gone, why won't people just let me die. No one would care, not Toni, not Jacen...my own brother wouldn't care if I lived or died!" Tears were running down her face as she took in heaving breaths.