Josie didn't meet Jack's eyes, she was staring out the window just over Jack's shoulder,
"Toni said so, he said that I drove Alan to it. That he planned to break up with me and the only way Alan saw out was killing himself. He thinks I said something to him to push him over." She shook her head and continued in that same hollow monotone voice, "But I didn't say anything, I asked him to move in with me, he freaked out and I asked why he was so upset I thought he loved me. He said that he liked having sex with me. Then I started to cry because I guess Alan just like every other guy saw me as a good screw and nothing else. I said, so that's it is it, I thought you were different, I thought you saw me as more, I guess I was wrong. Then I left. I don't know how any of that could have pushed him to kill himself. But I think it was just me, my presence is toxic. I hurt everything I touch. It's because of all the horrible things I've done. Karma's a bitch ain't it?" The corner of her mouth twitched slightly, if you had blinked you would have missed it.