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Tweak says, "Get jiggy wit it... Or Else!"

Scott McCall (teen_alpha) wrote in freedomtownic,
@ 2016-05-11 16:04:00

Entry tags:

!thread, ~scott mccall, ~stiles stilinski

Who: Scott and Stiles
When: 05/11/16
Where: Stiles'
What: discussing things
Warnings: None anticipated

Scott was beyond nervous. He didn't know what was going to happen, and that was making him really nervous. Scott didn't regret telling Stiles though. It had been the right thing to do. Scott felt like a weight had been lifted off his chest. Scott got showered and dressed, and headed out. Scott thought this was a good idea, having the talk at Stiles'. They would be alone, away from prying public eyes. It was just the way it would be best. Scott liked that about this.

It wasn't too long before he was standing outside Stiles' door, his heart pounding hard. Scott knew he had to knock. His hand hovered over the door for a few moments before he finally knocked. "Stiles, it's me!" He called through the door. Scott was really hoping that Stiles' roommate would stay away, as Stiles said that he or she would. Scott brushed his hand over his black hair.

What was going to happen?

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loseyourdnim
2016-05-11 08:53 pm UTC (link)

He had sat there for a while, looking at the words that were written on the computer screen. This hadn't been something he had anticipated, not that there was much room for that these days. He'd somehow become acclimated to living in space, and aware of the existence of many of the things he may or may not fanboy over were now or maybe always have been real people. Stiles could handle monsters, aliens, werewolves, chimera's, even the nogitsune...or at least sort of. He wasn't letting on to tell anyone that he had a feeling Theo was right. That even though the nogitsune was gone, there was something still there. Something still void inside of him.

All that he could handle, he could attempt to wrap his mind around and almost became expected at this point. Scott telling him that he loved him, that he has loved him for a while now. He didn't know how to even begin to understand. He hadn't ever considered the possibility, and they were close. Scott was the one person that had always been there, they had always been there for each other. Through girlfriends, or lack there of on Stiles side save for Malia. They've been through Scott's bite, facing alphas, and nearly getting killed who knows how many times. Scott was someone he couldn't really imagine life without, but he didn't know if that was the same. He didn't know how to communicate or even think about the emotions he had with Scott.

Stiles had never considered himself to possibly be attracted to men, it had been joked about from time to time throughout high school. There were weird moments with Danny, and even the strange friendship that sometimes lingered along a blurred line with Derek. A guy who had just up and disappeared, and though he had his reasons and they were good, Stiles was still kinda hurt about it. Another thing he didn't really voice. So now there was this was Scott, and he had no idea how to handle it. What it could possibly mean, if anything. There were just so many uncertainties now.

"Coming, hold up." He said as he snapped out of it, completely out of it when he knocked but thankfully Scott had announced he was here and that had snapped him out of it. Getting up from the bed where he'd been perched with the laptop and some random snacks and a soda he'd shove it all aside as he made his way over to the door and opened it. There was a ball in the back of his throat it felt like, but this was Scott and he couldn't let anything change what they already had at the very least, if not come out much stronger or closer. Maybe both.

"Hey man..." He smiled, it had been a long time since he'd seen him. Since he was really allowing himself to see anyone. He'd instantly pulled Scott into a one handed hug with a slap to the back. He'd been cruel to the guy last time they'd talked. Blaming everything on him, harboring hate for the fact that Scott didn't know who to believe at the time. He understood that now, he was making his peace with it. Clearing his throat now, "C'mon inside. My roommates not here or anything, I can barely tell when they are actually. I've never actually...seen him." He shrugged and looked over his shoulder, "You want a soda or something?"

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teen_alpha
2016-05-11 10:08 pm UTC (link)

Scott hugged him back. He might have held on a little longer than necessary. Scott pulled back though and moved to come inside. Scott wasn't sure he could tell you what his roommate's name was, so that was something they could commiserate on. Scott wasn't even sure where to start with this conversation. It was going to be hard to get it all out there. Well, the hardest part was over at least.

"We have so much catching up to do. I mean.... besides what I told you." Scott said, his heart was pounding even harder with Stiles being so close. Scott really didn't know how he would ever be anything but nervous around Stiles for awhile now that it was out in the open. He was glad that he had spoken up though and always would be. He ran his hand through his black hair again.

"This is a little awkward, and I wish it wasn't. We've been best friends all our lives, Stiles. I don't want things to stay awkward with us. No matter what happens we have to figure this out."

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loseyourdnim
2016-05-11 10:17 pm UTC (link)

"Catching up...hah, yeah. That might be a bit of an understatement." Scott had been there longer than him, so he could only imagine he had more stories about this place that he himself did, but that wasn't even really what was on his mind at the moment. The lingering wonder of whether Scott had told anyone else about this had popped into his head.

"Umm so..couch, that's good, right? Yeah." He shrugged, trying desperately not to make it any more awkward than it already seemed to be getting and he'd only just walked in the door. His own heart was racing in his chest, and he was incapable of even hiding that knowing that the other man could hear it what with his wolf senses and what not, an unfair advantage if you asked him at the moment.

"I agree, this...this is a little strange. I'm just gonna ignore it though, cause we are best friends. We will always be best friends, and nothing is ever going to change that. Not even...this, whatever...this really is. Nothing can change that." He shrugged and flopped down on the couch, he'd forgotten about drinks but his mouth was dry. He just didn't want to move again.

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teen_alpha
2016-05-16 10:23 pm UTC (link)

Scott wasn't sure what to say to begin the conversation. He wondered what Stiles meant when he said "whatever this really is", because Scott really meant what he had said to Stiles. He had loved Allison, and Kira, but the love for Stiles had been there all along under the surface. Scott didn't know exactly when it had happened, that he'd fallen for his best friend. Scott wondered if Stiles had ever noticed, but he didn't think so. Scott was a little proud of his ability to keep it hidden all this time.

"Stiles, it's okay if you don't feel the same way as me. I didn't expect you to. I know how you felt about Lydia, I also know that you at least liked Malia, you never really told me if you loved her or not. I get it that you're straight. I just.... I guess I want you to at least consider the possibility of us being together. Maybe you just never considered it before."

Scott hated that hopeful tone in his voice, but he honestly couldn't help it. Scott knew that if he had to, he could get over Stiles and move on. This would help, if he knew for sure it couldn't happen. If it could, well that would be exactly what he wanted, but he still wasn't regretting doing this. He had to know once and for all if he and Stiles were destined to be just friends.

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loseyourdnim
2016-05-17 12:37 am UTC (link)

He sat there, and for a few moments he had just been able to get away with listening to what Scott was saying. It wasn't just to pass the time, and he wasn't just acting as though he was listening to what the other boy was saying either. He'd hung on to each of the words that came from his mouth and tried to consider everything.

"You're right. You are completely right, Scott. This is something that I've never considered before. I've never known to look for any possibilities, or any hints that it even existed. It...it just never was a thought -- before." There wasn't just himself and Scott to consider either. There had been Allison in the past, if it went back that far which it sounded like it did. Then there was Kira, and from what he knew the two of them would have still been together now had she been here. Lydia was a long time love of his, and it seemed like he could have a shot with her here, for some reason. They'd grown much closer, even before they both managed to appear here at the same time. There was also Malia, and he realized he had never mentioned whether or not he loved her. Did he? It felt like everything was bubbling to the surface all at once.

His throat felt tight, like there was a lump in the back of it and he couldn't breathe or swallow...he knew what it was though. It was his anxiety, it was the panic of not being certain about anything. There was a clamminess to his skin suddenly and he breathed out a little heavily for a moment. "I..." He had been looking down at his lap, his jeans, and his sneakers until he finally glanced over at Scott.

"I mean I had always assumed that I was straight. I mean there...well it was strange at times with Derek, but nothing. I never had thoughts. I had always chased Lydia, I'd been a virgin for...I just didn't even think that." He wasn't finishing his own words because he wasn't sure how to. Was there a possibility that he'd be attracted to men? He wasn't sure now. There was never that possibility, and now Scott was giving him that to consider. His eyes had gone searching for words that would never appear out of nowhere before looking back to Scott.

"I'm not...saying no, but..." He ran his hand through his hair and sighed some, there was sweat forming along his hairline. "I don't really...know how to feel about it yet? This just feels like it's out of nowhere, and I don't know...how I feel about anyone really now. It kinda makes me...question a lot of things? You know?" He wondered if he had made any sense. It was something he was going to consider though, he knew already that there was a chance he felt the same or at least felt something for the other and just had never realized or thought anything of it before.

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teen_alpha
2016-05-26 04:02 am UTC (link)

Scott listened to all that Stiles had to say. It was hard for him, sitting this close and not kissing him or holding him. The best part was that Stiles wasn't saying no. That was more than he had hoped for, honestly. Lydia had told him that Stiles was straight, and while Scott had known that, Stiles was telling him that there was a possibility. Scott wondered what would happen if he kissed Stiles, it might help him figure things out.

"I honestly didn't even expect you to be open to the possibility. I care about you so much, Stiles, and even if you don't feel the same way I do, I will always be your best friend. I am so sorry about believing Theo. If I could take it back, I would. You know that I have faith in you..... I'm not sure what came over me. You are my best friend and you always will be."

Scott and Stiles had known each other all their lives, and Scott couldn't imagine his life without Stiles. He touched Stiles ' arm, when he noticed that it looked like he might be having a panic attack. "Hey, it's okay. I'm here." Scott didn't want him to have a panic attack. He could help him through it though, if he did have one. It was something that he was used to, being in Stiles' life.

That's when he decided to kiss him, and leaned out, brushing his lips over Stiles', softly, not letting it get too heated.

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loseyourdnim
2016-05-26 04:30 am UTC (link)

He'd felt the warmth of Scott's hand on his arm and it was comforting. The last thing Stiles wanted to do was go into a full fledged panic attack that would probably end up with him passed out on the ground in some awkward position where he would wake up with pains in his neck and who knew what else.

He took in a deep breathe and exhaled slowly, he was ready to take in another but his lips had been caught up in what felt like a daze. He hadn't even really realized that Scott had gotten closer, that his lips were on his at the moment. It just took passing seconds for him to comprehend that his best friend was kissing him, and even once he realized he didn't push away or react at first. His eyes had fallen shut and it was a light, and almost innocent sort of kiss.

After a moment he had kissed back, rather than just feeling a kiss on his lips. He didn't really know what he was doing, or the why but it had given him something to focus on, and relax. He was holding his breathe, and calming down now. Kissing Scott back just as lightly he lifted his hand to touch against Scott's arm lightly before letting it just hold on to him for a moment. Nothing was making sense at all, to him. This wasn't even making sense, but he wasn't pulling away either.

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teen_alpha
2016-05-26 08:46 am UTC (link)

When Stiles didn't pull away, he kissed him more, but still not open mouthed. Scott broke the kiss only when he needed to breathe. Well that was something, wasn't it? Stiles had kissed back. Scott didn't know what to do now, but he licked his lips, tasting Stiles on them. He was glad that it had helped Stiles calm down, too, he seemed to be breathing easier than he had been. He had been dreaming about kissing Stiles for so long now. It was amazing that he had kissed back.

"You.... you kissed back, Stiles." Scott said, a bit in awe. He couldn't believe it and it had just happened. "Maybe some subconscious part of you has thought of kissing me. I'm not going to pressure you into anything... I mostly just wanted to see what it was like, and I wanted to calm you down. I didn't want you to have a panic attack." Scott didn't know what they felt like from experience, but he did know what it was like to not be able to breathe. All too well did he know that.

It was hard to say what Stiles was thinking, but Scott didn't know that he wanted to know. Yes, Stiles had kissed him back, but that didn't mean that he was feeling the same. It may have just been reflex. Scott didn't want that to be the case, but you never knew. "What are you feeling now?" He asked,

"It's okay if you can't tell me."

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loseyourdnim
2016-05-26 04:03 pm UTC (link)

He kissed back.

Once the kiss ended his hand dropped away from Scott, and pulled back into himself. What did that mean? His eyes frantically searched all over Scott's face at first and then down to his lap as he tried to piece together the possible meaning of kissing his bestfriend..on the lips. Brows knitting together, he was more calm now though and didn't feel like his head might burst with the millions of questions he had going through them. For that he was grateful, but the questions were all still there.

He smirked a bit when he listened to Scott's reasoning. He wanted to see what it was like, was that what they sounded like when they came up with what seemed like good reasons for doing the things they did to flirt with people? It mildly amused him but the grin faded just a little while those questions were still posed.

"I did, yeah. I mean maybe? Maybe I have and just never realized that I thought about it..." He just wasn't sure and he didn't know how to figure anything out right now. "Feeling? What am I feeling?" Allison, Kira, Lydia, Malia, and somewhat oddly Derek were all running around in his head. Then there was Scott, he looked over at the other boy and wondered but he still wasn't sure what he was wondering. He wanted Scott to be happy, he deserved it. He wanted everyone to be happy, and safe. "I'm gonna do this, and it doesn't mean that I've figured anything out...because I haven't. I don't know what I'm feeling right now. I don't know how I feel about...anything at this point. I don't know when I will, but it's there now and I can see that. So don't...just don't....think into this too much, ok?"

He didn't make much sense cause at the moment while he talked he had just sat there. There was a chance he could just get up and walk out when he was done talking, or he would punch the other in the face. He didn't do either of those things though, instead leaning in and kissing Scott rather out of the blue. It wasn't as soft or innocent as the kiss Scott had given him. Stiles didn't know how to be that graceful, not with all his fumblings through life. Instead the kiss was full pressed, lips getting a grip on Scott's as his hand pressed against the others jawline and pulled it into something a bit more heated and filled with uncertain emotions.

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teen_alpha
2016-05-27 06:01 am UTC (link)

When Stiles kissed him deeply like that, Scott was taken aback. What was going on? Was Stiles really going with this? That was crazy. But Scott wasn't going to stop him, he was right, they shouldn't overthink it. They should just go with it. Scott kissed him back, an arm circling around Stiles' waist to bring him closer.The kiss being more heated was making Scott very happy. He shivered and kissed him more, but he didn't make a move to go any further than kissing.

That's when he had to come up for air. Taking a deep breath, he went to kiss Stiles again, this time his tongue licking the outside of Stiles' lips, asking for a deeper kiss. He wanted to feel Stiles' tongue in his mouth. Scott honestly hadn't expected this at all, and he almost didn't know what to do. For starters he was trying to let Stiles set the pace, it was easier that way. Stiles could do what he was comfortable doing. Scott didn't know what to say, he just wanted to keep kissing Stiles.

He let ut a soft moan against Stiles' lips, his free hand cupping Stiles' jawline.

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loseyourdnim
2016-05-27 02:10 pm UTC (link)

Stiles couldn't believe Stiles was kissing Scott. He needed to know though, that he hadn't just let the previous kiss happen because he didn't want to hurt Scott's feelings. That it was just instinct to kiss someone back when they kissed you, and that's what it had felt like. So if he was really going to consider this he needed to know what it would be like to kiss...Scott. To kiss his bestfriend and if it was something he did or ever could feel comfortable doing.

He had kissed him and he had made sure to put that effort into it to see what it was like. Feeling Scott kiss back, his eyes shut again and he actually somewhat enjoyed the kiss. He had a feeling he might have enjoyed it more had here not been so much going on inside of his head at the moment. Once it broke he had thought that was it, and that they could start talking again but Scott leaned in and kissed him again. He didn't push away, or pull back. At least not right away, he noticed how Scott's lips felt on his own. They were soft, thick, and it was a nice feeling to have against his own - stubble would have been hell he could only imagine. How did guys deal with that? Was he considering this now?

He had to pull away though, the tongue though wasn't his immediate reason, it had taken him by surprise as did the soft moan. Stiles had never considered any of this, and it was all new to him. Breaking away he had to let out a breathe and looked down at his lap for a moment. Had Scott been with other guys before? He didn't know if he should ask.

"I uhh..wow. Um. I just, needed to kinda see what it was like? I guess?" He lifted his hand and scratched the back of his head for a moment.

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