Sookie Stackhouse (fairybarmaid) wrote in freedomtownic, @ 2020-03-04 16:50:00 |
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Gran (Possible Death Triggers)
one I have all the time. First it was re-living Gran's death. Coming in seeing her, lying there. That's how it started.
Now, they are different. My brain imagines how René did the deed. That's worse. My imagination runs wild. To be honest, I have quite the imagination.
Finally, René turns into a rattlesnake, a very big rattle snake. That's when I wake up.
Sometimes I scream, sometimes I kick and hit. I wonder if the other Sookie has nightmares? If the same things trigger her? If ... . [Pauses]
My roommates put up with a lot, I don't scream often, but when I do it's scary. My love gets kicked and hit all the time; Matthew usually wakes me before the screaming starts, even more he stops me from getting too deep in the nightmare.
Matthew, I love you.
I wish Gran could know you and you know her. She was wonderful, my best friend and biggest fan. She taught me to love myself, as much as I could. [Once I found out what I was, things changed.] As much as that knowledge and the acquiring my fairy powers helped, it hurt.
Gran, I miss you every day. You sacrificed everything for me, including dying.