She learned what? That he was selfish? Scared? He realized he hated disappointing her. Fleur popped into his mind. He had feelings for her, but that didn't mean he didn't care about the woman who would bear him two wonderful children. He knew he loved Astoria in their time. It was obvious. Why couldn't he open himself to it here? He didn't know, but he believed he'd hurt her worse if he tried and failed. "I want you to know that I am here. If you need me...I will always come."