She hadn't let go of Eris' hand and she found herself smiling more at the question. She supposed she was exceedingly giddy in relation to feeling nothing at all. Her first impulse had been to rush forth and tell everyone how much she cared about them, opposed to not feeling any sort of care at all. And yet, she didn't chose to tell Eris that through journal. It was different to tell her siblings, parents, and extended family. Eris knew Astro loved her. She just didn't know how far it went. Or maybe she did. Astro truly did not know for sure.
"My life would be entirely different," she commented at the other statement. She wouldn't be striving for adrenaline, for certain, but that wasn't even the more important thing she wouldn't be striving for. "But no...I didn't want to talk because it was over or anything like that."
She bit hard down on the inside of her lip. "I don't want to ever be in a position where I can't say how I feel. And I don't want to be alone. I know I won't ever be, but...I got to see my Dad alone in prison today, and I just...I don't want that." Her gaze shifted down for a moment. "Point is...when I think about not being alone...I think about being with you. I think about how I know you are always going to be with me. And when I think about who I love...I think about you too."
She went silent for a moment before whispering. "And I don't mean the way I love Juniper."