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Tweak says, "Monkey See Monkey Do"

Cho Quigley (charmingcho) wrote in finnigans_rpg,
@ 2015-07-26 20:14:00

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character: cho chang, character: finbar quigley

RP: in the dark of the night
Who: Cho & Finbar
What: Cho can't stop seeing a face.
Where: Cho's flat in Monument Alley
When: Sunday, July 26th, late at night
Rating: TBD (talk of violence)

Cho woke with a start, a scream just on the tip of her tongue, just like it had been the first time it had happened. Except this wasn't real life, she wasn't in the stands at Hogwarts; this was just a dream, replaying in her mind yet again.

It had been years since the nightmares. When the war had ended, when she'd finally moved out of her parents and into her flat on Monument, they'd become a distant bad memory. But all month they'd been back, plaguing her nights. She'd been cranky during the day from lack of sleep and had shut out anyone she feared might notice the dark circles under her eyes and her lack of appetite.

But tonight, after a low key night of drinks with Fin at the Pub, she'd missed him, and had gotten the feeling he'd noticed her distance, so she'd invited him back to her flat for the night, praying to Rowena Herself that his presence would scare the dreams away for the night. Her prayers - it seemed - had failed her, though and she when he woke to her gasping and gulping for air, she prayed again. This time for strength.

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charmingcho
2015-07-28 09:02 pm UTC (link)

Cho cried in Fin's arms, letting him soothe her. He was so good at not pushing her. She cried until she could breathe again and then sat up a little bit when he spoke, giving them both a little bit of space but staying in his arms. She felt suddenly awkward, sobbing over all of this while lying barely dressed in the arms of another man. Another man, she thought, how ridiculous, and yet isn't that how she'd seen them all since she was a student? They weren't him.

But this was Fin. He'd come to occupy such a large space in her heart quite unexpectedly. And so, she took a gulp and, shaking her head (to indicate that, no, her nightmares weren't about the bombings, as such), tried to ask (she stumbled the first time), "You know the name Cedric Diggory." It wasn't really a question, but her accent was thick and the whole thing sounded awful to her.

"The heartbroken fans, they said, the 'sacrificed heartthrob', they called him. Some of them said I'd been going after famous young wizards for the attention..." She shook her head, her eyes meeting his as she tried to focus.

"I loved him, you see, and he was just suddenly dead. In front of me. In front of everyone but... I was there, too. And no on in the world understood," she said, bitterness seeping into her voice. "I tried, to be the girl was I before," her eyes plead for him to believe her, "everyone kept saying I was so young I would get over it. They said I just didn't understand that time would fix things. But... We'd planned to be together, after I'd finished my NEWTs. It's not all that uncommon, to marry not long out of school, you know. He wanted a big family, because we were both only children." She rambled.

She shook her head again and took a deep breath. "Fin, I keep seeing his face. There was a loud bang, and then a thud, and then he was on the ground and Harry was clutching him and his eyes were just staring and he was just right there. And he was gone. And the nightmares finally went away a couple of years ago, even if missing him didn't, and they're back, like it was yesterday." She knew she sounded insane - people had told her that for years after he was gone, she sounded crazy, and she felt bad for saying all of this to Finbar, the man in her life, and she hoped she wasn't hurting him, but she had to say it. And, honestly, if they were to be together, he needed to know her story anyway, as much as it might hurt them both.

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_finbar_
2015-07-28 10:25 pm UTC (link)

Pushing himself further up until they were both sitting rather than lying down, Fin nodded. He’d heard the name Cedric Diggory; the Diggory family was a known name in the Wizarding World, but Fin had never been close with them. But that wasn’t important. Cho was talking, rambling, her accent thick, something he knew only happened when she was agitated, and Fin listened. He let her talk, let her ramble, and reminded himself that just like him, Cho had a past.

“You and Cedric…” he said, reaching up to cup her cheek. “You would have had a wonderful life and lots of beautiful children.” That last part he knew without a doubt, because no matter who Cho had children with, they were bound to be beautiful like their mother. “I’m sorry you lost that. I’m sorry for your loss.” Gently he brushed his thumb over her cheekbone. “I didn’t know the girl you were before, but I know that there’s no way you could possibly be her after what happened.” He held her arms out to her if she needed… wanted the comfort. “What can I do to make this easier for you?”

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