InsaneJournal

Journal -- Zacharias Smith
[Private to Self]

Apparently I'm still paying for things I both can cannot control. It would have been nice to have been told prior to the arrangement that I'm being set up for some wedding (though not my own, thankfully. Were that the case, I would fake my own death and move to Peru or something), but I suppose it's better than being informed via letter from some guard dog about it. Despite being told prior to receiving a letter from Marcus Flint (I assume the same one from school who was a Death Eater who, for some reason, the world forgives and allows to play Quidditch and now worships for being good at a sport. That has to be the only reason he gets forgiveness), I still have no idea what to make of it. I can't quite tell if this is meant to be good advice (however unsolicited) or something else. Do I say, "Thank you," or do I ignore it? I guess it's a good sign he didn't come out hackles raised, ears down, growling at me, but I'm still not sure why he bothered. Was he afraid I'd make a poor impression and make Bryony (who is that again? Did I go to a party with her there? I think so) look bad?

I'm probably over-thinking this thing. I should respond. I should say thanks for the advice. I don't know if it'll be helpful or not, and I have no idea why her parents would want me to be her date. I know why my parents would, but not hers. Maybe they were seriously desperate and had no other options at the time and went with who was available. And since my schedule doesn't matter to my parents, I'm presumably always available.

On the plus side, it's been about a week, and they've not mentioned the Pride thing, so they must not have found out I went to support Stacey. Small victories, I suppose.

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[Private to Bryony]

So your attack dog body guard friend sent me an owl, and I'm not sure how to take it.

Is this as awkward for you as it is for me?

Should we get together before this wedding, or would that just make it worse somehow?

Hi. I thought, since we've been set up, we should talk a bit so it won't be as potentially strange if we don't talk until your sister's wedding. If you want. If not, I understand. But I was thinking probably in the journals so it doesn't put so much pressure on either of us. They seem to be good for allowing things to be a bit less pressure filled.Or maybe that's just my perspective. But we don't have to talk if you don't want to.

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I am so glad it's Friday.