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Tweak says, "Where'd I leave my head?"

Eddie Carmichael (upstander) wrote in finnigans_rpg,
@ 2014-09-07 13:39:00

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Rosie. I have a problem.

...more than the usual, I mean.

I assume you talked to Susan?

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	Eddie _rose_ 2014-09-07 08:42 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah, I did. There was a lot of talking. And you should know when I say a lot of talking, I mean a lot of talking. What kind of problem are we talking about now? Something that can be dealt with here or should there be more... talking? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Rosie upstander 2014-09-07 08:48 pm UTC (link)
	You keep saying that word talking and I think you have an alternative definition of the word that I'm not aware of. Are you coming on to me? Rosie, get it together, I'm not going to sleep with you, you're like my sister. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Eddie _rose_ 2014-09-07 08:53 pm UTC (link)
	No, when I say talking here, I mean talking as in engaging in speech. Granted some of it was drunken talking, but talking nonetheles. EW! No! If I was coming on to you, you wouldn't stand a chance. Now, should I break out the țuică for you, too, or are we cracking open a new well of ink? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Rosie upstander 2014-09-07 09:18 pm UTC (link)
	Okay...fine. Well, I just mean, Susan and I...you know... We fucked. A lot. And I don't know what to do. I can't drink right now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Eddie _rose_ 2014-09-07 09:24 pm UTC (link)
	5+ orgasms, or so I was told. You know I don't like telling on people, right? But I think there's something you should know or at least be aware of. Thank goodness, I could use a break from the drinks as well. That doesn't mean we can't talk for real. But go on. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Rosie upstander 2014-09-07 09:28 pm UTC (link)
	Rowena, you guys really don't leave anything out, do you? Wait, what? What thing? That's it. I fucked Susan and I don't know what to do. So. You tell me. Come on, come on, I don't have all day! I mean...she's a great mate. And she's gorgeous. And I care about her. So you can see the problem here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Eddie

_rose_
2014-09-07 09:33 pm UTC (link)

Did I mention the drunken talking? Țuică's pretty much the moonshine version of Babbling Beverage with a hell of a lot more hangovers.

But yes, there was a lot of talking, talking while drinking, drinking in the afternoon before the dinner party, and by drinking I mean enough drinking that neither Susan nor myself was completely sober by the time it started. That led to a lot of talking at the party and basically, what I'm trying to say is that I'm not the only one who knows.

I can see a problem there, but I'd like to hear which problem it is you're seeing. Just to, you know, be on the same page as you.

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Rosie

upstander
2014-09-07 09:39 pm UTC (link)

You did. I'm steering well clear of that mess if it loosens your tongue that much. I need to keep my wits about me.

Wait, what? What does that mean?

The problem is that I don't want to stop sleeping with her but I'm total shit at relationships and I don't want to mess stuff up with her because I care about her as a mate. I mean, we're just friends who shag occasionally, right? That won't end badly will it?

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Eddie

_rose_
2014-09-07 09:45 pm UTC (link)

It's not meant to be drunk in the quantities we did. Traditionally you do one shot before a meal, that's it. You don't split half a bottle between two witches and wash it down with red wine. I gave her one to get her to calm down, and then it just took on a life of its own, alright?

It means that Seamus and Dean knows too. And Hannah. And Justin and Ernie. And Rolf. Basically everyone at the dinner party knows.

Do you want my honest answer to that? And keep in mind: I'm 20. How many relationships like that do you think I've had?

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	Rosie upstander 2014-09-07 10:03 pm UTC (link)
	I...fine, just don't keep talking about it now I keep thinking about you two and drunk and bad decisions anyway, let's not talk about it. What? Seriously? What the fuck?? Everything? Like, five times everything??? What do we have to lose? Go for it. Full honest answer. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Eddie

_rose_
2014-09-07 10:19 pm UTC (link)

What? You're thinking about me and Susan together? Head out of the gutter, Carmichael!

I was running late, because drinks, nap, shower, coffee, and when I got there, they knew. Țuică = Babbling Beverage, more or less.

I don't know if it was everything, but they knew about her and you.

Alright, you asked for it. Here goes:

You're an idiot if you think it's possible to just stay friends who shag without it ending badly. You two are friends. Friends, Eddie. Sure, you can be friends who shag, but guess what? That's a relationship. I'd hate to see either of you hurt because feelings got involved, so you've better have your shit sorted out before you start labelling yourself as friends with benefits, and by 'shit' I mean crystal clear rules. I'm talking Cursebreaker procedure clear rules.

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	Rosie upstander 2014-09-07 10:28 pm UTC (link)
	As Susan is quick to remind me, that's where it resides anyway. Fuck. Not that I didn't...I just wanted to have my head about me before everyone knew we'd shagged. So you're saying I should end it then? (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Rosie upstander 2014-09-07 10:31 pm UTC (link)
	Gotta say, Rosie. I don't want to stop. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Eddie

_rose_
2014-09-07 10:41 pm UTC (link)

Alas, as much as I may want to explore those luscious curves and inviting lips, nothing like that happened.

I don't blame you, and though I feel horrid for telling you this, I still thought you should at least be aware of it.

No, that's not what I'm saying, and of course you don't want to stop. You had amazing sex with an amazingly sexy woman, you'd be stupid if you wanted to stop. I'm just saying, keep your head straight and don't pretend that it wouldn't be a relationship, because it would, and you know it.

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	Rosie upstander 2014-09-07 10:42 pm UTC (link)
	Yes well, I have. You are missing out. Yeah...I guess that's what I get for showing up fashionably late. I was wondering what the glances were about. She said friends still. I don't want to push her to things she doesn't want. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Eddie

_rose_
2014-09-07 10:51 pm UTC (link)

See now, that I would have liked to have heard more about, not your endowment which I'm already aware of.

I'm sorry, Eddie.

Friendship, as defined by the dictionary:
Friendship
noun
- the emotions or conduct of friends; the state of being friends.
synonyms: relationship, close relationship, attachment, mutual attachment, association, bond, tie, link, union;

- a relationship between friends.
- a state of mutual trust and support between allied nations.

A friendship is already a relationship, however, here's an idea: talk to her, Eddie. I'm positive that she's much better at explaining to you what she wants out of this, other than extraordinary orgasms.

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Rosie

upstander
2014-09-08 02:27 am UTC (link)

How are you aware of my endowment? Have you been peeking on me in the showers at Gringott's???? I'M SCANDALIZED!

You know what I mean, Rosie, don't be a smart-arse. I mean, she doesn't seem to date people and I tend to be shit as a boyfriend, so if she doesn't want to take it beyond friendship it's probably for the best. Because I'll just end up fucking things up anyway.

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Eddie

_rose_
2014-09-08 07:05 am UTC (link)

Yeah, you got me figured out; I'm peeking at you in the showers every chance I get.

Come on, Eddie, let's get real, shall we? I've squeezed past you in tight spaces. Doesn't take a geometrical genius to figure out which size we're dealing with there.

I'm not being a smart-arse. I'm serious here. You're friends, and friends talk, there's a mutual trust and attachment. But if you're going to look at is as a failed mission from the get-go, why even bother? Why not just give up straight away, Owl her to let her know that you're leaving. Or actually, don't Owl her and just ignore her. I'm sure that'll get the message through.

Do YOU want something more? Do YOU think she's worth trying not to be such a fuck-up with her? If the answer is yes, then talk to her. She might say she wants that too, which... GREAT! WONDERFUL!! AMAZING!!! If she says no, well, then you'll have spared yourself a couple of weeks of anguish and hand-wringing.

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Rosie

upstander
2014-09-08 03:46 pm UTC (link)

Bloody hell, I KNEW it! That's why you keep rubbing up against me! Rose Zeller, I'm not a piece of meat, you know! I'm a man with feelings, even if I haven't any idea what those feelings are.

I agree, but the fact of the matter is, I don't bloody know WHAT I'm feeling. This all just happened yesterday, people don't decide things like feelings on the spot. It's not like lust where, you know, mechanically you know, but it's a bit...

I'm not going to not owl her, you great tit. I'm trying to figure out how to suss it out, I'm not the best at knowing these things under normal circumstances, let alone when I'm wasting away from being proper shagged to death.

Oh it's useless. I'll just have to make a cup of tea and THINK, and Rowena knows that's never been my greatest strength despite being a Ravenclaw. Whoever said we were meant to be wise? I'd like to chuck them in the Thames.

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Eddie

_rose_
2014-09-08 04:25 pm UTC (link)

No, you're not, but sometimes you're an obstacle that needs to be passed.

Owl, Floo, talk, send out smoke signals, I don't care how you do it, just get some form of COMMUNICATION going, because it will give you a hell of lot more answers than I can give you.

Eddie, calm down, okay. I'm not trying to deter you from doing something you want or convince you to doing anything you don't. But think about this (and yes, I know that is silly considering what I'm about to suggest): This is feelings we're talking about, so maybe you shouldn't think? Maybe you should just go to her and see what happens? If you talk, you talk. If you fuck, you fuck and then you can try talking another time, and if she kicks you out, well, then you leave.

I care about you, I care about Susan, and I honestly hate seeing you both with your knickers in a twist like are now. Believe me, if I could, I would wave my wand and make you both aware of exactly what's going on, but I can't.

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Rosie

upstander
2014-09-08 04:50 pm UTC (link)

I can't just run up and see her to express feelings I don't understand or know myself. That would be stupid and entirely counterproductive, so forgive me, but I'll have to ignore your terrible advice for a moment. I don't plan on leaving her in the dark I just hoped you had ideas on how to suss out what one feels, but it sounds like you're a clueless about it as I am.

I'm going to tell her what i feel when I figure it out myself.

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Eddie

_rose_
2014-09-08 04:55 pm UTC (link)

WHY NOT?

At least I had an idea, instead of just "Rosie, tell me how I feel!" So let me tell you what I told her: I'm 20, I've never been in anything that's not lust or friendship, I've never dated anyone, I don't know anything about this, so yes, I'll give you my honest opinion (and yes, I still believe that you going to see her is the best way to handle it, if for no other reason than to confirm that whatever feelings you have or had are still there).

Why not just be honest with her and tell her that you don't know?

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	Rosie upstander 2014-09-08 05:09 pm UTC (link)
	Telling her I don't know is pretty much what i've done. All right off to figure it out. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Eddie _rose_ 2014-09-08 05:11 pm UTC (link)
	All right. Have fun doing that, but I still don't think you should think so much about it. Just... do. You know where to find me! (Reply to this) (Parent)

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