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Tweak says, "I'm obsessed with this!"

Rolf Scamander (outofthewild) wrote in finnigans_rpg,
@ 2014-09-07 01:06:00

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Journal - Tossing and turning
I never used to have trouble sleeping. Or at least, getting to sleep.

This sucks.

Hello, ceiling. Maybe I should decorate you.

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	Rolf/Astoria sew_perfect 2014-09-07 06:34 am UTC (link)
	You too? Maybe we can talk and that will help. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: Rolf/Astoria outofthewild 2014-09-07 12:59 pm UTC (link)
	Yup. What's wrong, my dear? You shouldn't be laying awake! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Rolf/Astoria sew_perfect 2014-09-07 05:12 pm UTC (link)
	Too hot. Thinking of too many things. You? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Rolf/Astoria outofthewild 2014-09-07 05:29 pm UTC (link)
	Need a good cooling charm, my dear. Need an outlet for your thoughts? I can listen. I should take a pain potion but I can't bring myself to. So now I can't get comfortable and then the brain starts in and yes. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Rolf/Astoria

sew_perfect
2014-09-07 05:46 pm UTC (link)

Maybe. I know how to do one, but it isn't very strong and isn't working. Or maybe my hot isn't temperature related and just me thinking to much.

It's not fun thoughts. About...other people. I don't know, if you wanted to listen I would, but I would understand not.

You should. Take a potion. It's no good being in pain, Rolf, none at all. I couldn't stand thinking of you hurting.

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outofthewild
2014-09-07 11:06 pm UTC (link)

I can show you a trick or two - that's one thing I have been motivated to learn well over the years of travel. Heating and cooling charms in different temps helps so much. If I were there I'd cast it for you.

They rarely are, this late at night. I'd be happy to listen, if you wish, and if not, you have my full sympathies. I never mind listening.

I hate them. I've seen several people become dependent over the years and it's left me with a stout reluctance to take anything of that sort.

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Rolf/Astoria

sew_perfect
2014-09-08 01:52 am UTC (link)

I wouldn't mind if you stopped by and did fix it for me. Though it's quite late and that would be rude of me to ask.

You're very kind. I feel petty and small for even thinking it, but...I had just been thinking about Pansy. She...hates me. Because of Draco and I. I feel like she has something planned and I don't know what, and that makes me a bit crazy for worrying about it.

One potion wouldn't make you dependent. You don't deserve to be in pain.

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Rolf/Astoria

outofthewild
2014-09-08 02:11 am UTC (link)

I'll fix it tomorrow when I come by for tea, but in the meantime set these up around your bed or wherever and tap them with your wand. [attached to Bernadette, his owl: a handful of charmed paper fans to create a cool breeze] They have a limited lifespan, but they should last about 24 hours. I hope they help.

Oh, Tori, that's not petty. I remember Pansy, and she wasn't the nicest person at all. And I can see why you worry, though I hope nothing of the sort happens. It might do to take a few precautions if you're worried, though. We can go over self defense anytime you want. But worrying tonight isn't going to help you, so pretend I'm giving you a big hug. You might have Draco check your wards, too. Just in case.

I know, but one leads to two leads to... yeah. Paranoid much. That's me.

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sew_perfect
2014-09-08 02:18 am UTC (link)

You are a darling. Thank you, they help exceedingly!

It's petty to worry about her when I know Draco loves me. But all the same, it's a worry I have. What if he realizes she IS prettier than me? Or likes a woman...stronger and more in control than I ever could be? I just, couldn't be that kind of woman. That is petty. Even though I'm wording about her hurting us, I'm even more worried she'd hurt us THAT way. But thank you, I'm imagining the hug now and it's helping. I'll have him check, yes.

I would never judge. Perhaps just a little herb in your tea? Or something similar, if you don't want to use potions. No need to worry about being paranoid, it's perfectly reasonable.

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outofthewild
2014-09-08 02:46 am UTC (link)

You're very welcome.

Oh, Tori, he loves you and I don't think he'd betray you that way, not from everything you've ever told me about him. And I don't remember her being that pretty, honestly -- you're truly lovely and have the kind, warm soul that also shines through on top of it.

Maybe. I need to see if an apothecary or tea house can recommend something. I've been keeping so busy lately that I've not had enough time for other things.

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sew_perfect
2014-09-08 03:26 am UTC (link)

I know he does! Logically I know he would never hurt me, and he's wonderful and good, it's the mean part of me that even bothers to worry. I just know she always thought she would marry him and...it's hard. A little rain cloud over such a lovely event and future. And you're kind for saying so. Perhaps I mean she's quite a bit...sexier than I am. I don't-I'm just not that kind of girl. Not that-anyway. Thank you. I appreciate your words more than I can say.

There are a few about. Perhaps either Patil or Bobbin? Or Mr. Pucey has one as well. Any of those might be able to help you. You should make time to take care of yourself, Rolf. That's very important.

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outofthewild
2014-09-08 03:47 am UTC (link)

Logic and emotion, those two never agree right, I know. I don't think it's mean, and we can't control our fears. Hire some security to make sure she stays away from the event, perhaps. It's not your fault he doesn't want her anymore, after all.

Not that kind of girl? If I might broach the subject... how so? He obviously finds you quite attractive. You surely have some chemistry, or you wouldn't be progressing in your relationship. Forgive me if I'm being too forward, I'm only trying to help.

I was thinking I'd try Patil's later this week. I have a goodly amount of respect for the more Eastern magical medicines. And I am trying to take care of myself, I promise.

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sew_perfect
2014-09-08 04:02 am UTC (link)

No, that they do not. And I know it isn't my fault, but clearly Pansy disagrees. I try to avoid her, but sometimes she does her very best to remind me that she seems to think I'm an inferior choice.

Oh! No, I mean, we've been intimate. Do not mistake me! That-it might not be very proper, since we're not yet wed, be we are engaged so it seemed right. I just mean that I'm not-so outwardly sexual. And you're not forward at all, I just-I don't have many people to discuss it with and I'm sorry if I've just made you uncomfortable.

That makes me feel much better, Rolf. Please do, you need to stay around a good long while.

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outofthewild
2014-09-08 04:20 am UTC (link)

Pansy is full of it, then. And if she keeps bothering you, let me know. I'll try to show her the error of her ways.

I don't think it improper at all. You two are planning on spending your lives together. It isn't my place to judge, anyhow. You're welcome to discuss it with me, I just don't want to make you uncomfortable. I'll give you my opinion on the matter -- if she feels such a need to be so overtly sexual all the time, then perhaps it is a flaw in her. You don't feel the need to put yourself out there for everyone. Besides, everyone is different. THere isn't necessarily a right and wrong, I think, but I wouldn't hold yourself up against her, especially when she's trying so hard and he's choosing you anyway.

I don't know if I'm explaining it right? Hopefully you can parse my meaning from my rambling.

I will. I have a feeling I'll be around here for a good bit this time around.

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	Dean/Rolf artistdean 2014-09-07 12:17 pm UTC (link)
	~~As someone with insomnia~~ I have similar problems. I suggest establishing a firm routine before getting to bed. Another thing is to find something to do if you truly can't get to sleep, you might as well do something useful with your time, plus it might exhaust you. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. Best of luck. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: Dean/Rolf outofthewild 2014-09-07 01:02 pm UTC (link)
	I usually have one. I've never had much trouble, despite time zone hopping. ~~It's me being stupid.~~ I just don't want to take any potions, and I'm ~~sorer than hell~~ too stiff to get properly comfortable. I'll have to find something to work on. Thanks so much. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	susanamybones 2014-09-08 06:40 am UTC (link)
	Gorgeous, maybe you just need to exhaust yourself before bed? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	outofthewild 2014-09-08 11:15 am UTC (link)
	I'm actually rather tired. Having a hard time getting comfortable though (Reply to this) (Parent)

	errordynamic 2014-09-08 04:14 pm UTC (link)
	Have you thought about constellations? You could rotate them out. Greco-Roman. Arabic. Chinese. Aboriginal Australian. Mayan. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	outofthewild 2014-09-09 01:59 am UTC (link)
	I haven't, but that is a thought! Thank you! (Reply to this) (Parent)