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Tweak says, "Jay-net, are you deezent?"

Cho Quigley (charmingcho) wrote in finnigans_rpg,
@ 2014-09-04 12:33:00

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character: melinda bobbin, character: roger davies, delivery: cho chang, journal: cho, status: complete

Journal: what ifs & temporary solutions
[Private]

Talking with Rog the other night helped but I just can't seem to shake this funk. I'm happy for all of my clients of course, but there's a small nagging part of me that is just so... jealous. If you had asked me at 15 if I thought I'd be planning other people's happily ever afters, I'd have laughed. I'd have told you I'd be busy living my own. It was nearly 10 years ago that it all changed, I spent the whole summer after his death just... existing. And my father thought I was being childish and ridiculous - of course, he was worried about me with the obviously coming dark times, but part of me always thought maybe he was right. I was fifteen - why did I ever think that would be my happily ever after. What did I think would happen? After my NEWTs, he and I would get married and I would study charms like father wanted and we would start having babies and...?

Well, yeah, I guess I did think that. And I guess sometimes I still do. Nothing has ever felt like that did, no guy has ever lived up to him. I'm worried no one ever will. And I think that that's my funk. Surrounded by romance and summer and next year it's been a decade and what have I don't with that path I thought I was on in fifth year? I've completely left it behind. And so... I feel lost, I think.

[Warded to Roger & Ben]

Boys, what's your schedule look like? I need some very large shots of firewhiskey sometime soon and I'd love to share them with you.

[Warded to Melinda]

I'm trying to get Roger & Ben together for a night of absolute drunken debauchery. Please tell me you'll join us. And do invite whichever man has you glowing like you have been lately.

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	Private to Cho/Melinda charmingcho 2014-09-04 05:16 pm UTC (link)
	~~I'm fine.~~ ~~No, I'm not.~~ I'm fine, really. Just missing you all, I guess. With the quidditch season in full swing I feel like we all see each less in the fall, you know? I'm waiting to hear back when the boys are available. And yes, you are, you saucy minx. Spill. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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_melinda_
2014-09-04 05:28 pm UTC (link)

I can't quite see what you've struck out there, but I'll take your word for it. For now.

Yeah, it's been insane this season, hasn't it? And it's only just begun. I think, mind you I'm not sure at all, that Roger has a match on Saturday, so either Friday (although debauchery like that before a game may not be the best idea), or Saturday after his match? You and I can do breakfast or lunch together tomorrow, if you'd like.

I don't know that there really is all that much to spill, just that I don't want to rush anything and that he's sweet and kind and amazing and he makes my heart pound and my tummy feel funny in the best possible way and he's looking at me because apparently I'm grinning like a fool right now.

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	Re: Private to Cho/Melinda charmingcho 2014-09-04 05:33 pm UTC (link)
	Oh you are SO glowing. I can see it through your journal, for Rowena's sake. Take the day off (with me) tomorrow, let's do brunch and classy day drinking on the roof, and then see if the boys want to play Saturday night? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private to Cho/Melinda _melinda_ 2014-09-04 05:39 pm UTC (link)
	Liar. You're just guessing now. I am smiling though, I'll give you that. Late brunch. I have one wedding cake for this weekend, but I can have that done by 10 tomorrow, then I'll meet you on the roof. Can you get a hold of the boys or should I play a dirty card and send them word via cake? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to Cho/Melinda charmingcho 2014-09-04 05:55 pm UTC (link)
	Oh, cake. Always cake. They haven't responded to my journal note, anyway. See you on the rooftop, I'll pick up a bit of everything from that muggle diner we love down the way from the Leaky and make sure to bring the fixings for mimosas. Saturday, how about Weasley's club? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private to Cho/Melinda _melinda_ 2014-09-04 05:59 pm UTC (link)
	They could be busy. Either cake or a salty caramel and bourbon milkshake just to set the mood. Sounds good. Let me know what to bring from SW. Mmm, dancing and drinking. Weasley's club it is. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to Cho/Melinda charmingcho 2014-09-04 11:29 pm UTC (link)
	Change of plans, love. Ben's working the bar tomorrow & Saturday night so he said he'll take shots with us at Finnigan's Saturday, we can always go dancing tomorrow night if you've got your hopes up now? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private to Cho/Melinda _melinda_ 2014-09-04 11:30 pm UTC (link)
	We can always go dancing if we feel like it tomorrow. Tell Ben I'm in on Saturday! (Reply to this) (Parent)

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