The thing that I, ok I don't hate but do fixate on quite a bit, is that I have freckles on very pale white skin [apart from when it goes splotchy and red occassionally] and this means that they are pretty much always there, because the makeup that is pale enough for me doesn't cover them or hide them or anything. 
I don't know whether this is just my insecurities, but all my friends will start off with pretty normal skin, a mole here, some blotches there, acne, whatever, they're not totally perfect, but then something magical happens and they suddenly have clear, gorgeous skin. I mean, it looks made up, its not like it looks natural, but I'm pretty young and don't know all that much about makeup anyway, so maybe I'm applying it wrong, or simply have the wrong products in the first place, or am not using enough? 
I'm confused about whether I even should want to hide my freckles, because everyone is always talking about negative images in the press, and maybe I'm hoping that out there somewhere is a cream that will somehow give me an air brushed quality. I don't hate them, I just resent them, because as far as I know there isn't anything much else wrong with my skin, and if it wasn't for them... well, I don't know what kind of miracle I would expect to hapen if I was prettier, since I don't buy into the more popular/wealthy/happy myth, but whatever.
Is there a way to hide freckles, or at least learn to love them? 

Ok, some less insecurity based questions, and more just, questions questions. I'm left handed, so I find it much easier to apply liquid eyeliner to my left eye. Should I keep using my left hand on m right eye, which is easier but more awkward, or should I start trying to use my right hand on my right eye, which would be much less awkward but would probably take a while to get right without drawng all over my face? 
And of course, how how how do you get the courage to talk to/approach/make eye contact with the gorgeous ice queens at the Chanel etc tables in places like Boots or Debenhams or hell, even in Harrods? I know that they are in the shop, so they must want to sell me something, and so are probably not going to be horrible or totally ignore me, but how can I even find out when I'm totally mortified if one of them even catches me looking? Ok, that was quite an insecure question. Oh well. The ridiculous thing is I'm pretty damn self confident usually, just not about what I look like... 

Any help is appreciated!