Padma Patil (pellucid_lotus) wrote in eminor_macula, @ 2008-05-27 01:40:00 |
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Li, I'm sorry this has been so long in coming and that I'm too much of a coward to possibly say this face to face. It was not only rude of me, but also terribly unkind of me as a friend, to tell you that you musn't find yourself fancying James without so much as an explanation why. There is quite alot to the story and to James, and I am afraid that much of it I am not at liberty to tell. It would not only betray James' trust but also your still developing friendship with him. James is certainly kind and intelligent, but, like anyone, deeply complex. There are parts of his life that he doesn't reveal to anyone, not even to his close friends. His past experiences have forced him into a life of constant upheaval and, while it is unfortunate, once your tutelage is complete he will move along. It is not because he doesn't care about his friends or the place in which he finds himself, but from what I understand, those things which follow him, plague and haunt him, cannot let him stay in one place for too long. I tell you all of this, and I know I continue to be vague and without definite answers, because I do not want to see you grow attached to James, for whatever reason, and be hurt when he cannot stay. I also worry for the ramifications of any friendship between the two of you. I cannot imagine Father Christmas would be pleased at any closeness between you and your admittedly handsome male tutor and I know the guilt you would feel if Pewter took that friendship and used it to exploit your family or harm Victoria. Please forgive me if I was unkind or brash in my earlier owls and please consider having dinner with me again sometime soon. Perhaps we could sneak you away to visit your family? Its a terrible and obvious bribe, I know, but I do hope you will take it and forgive me. I couldn't bear to have you mad at me, Li. I love you and think of you constantly. I never lied to you, I will find a solution to this situation. You're my best friend and I hate to see your life playing out this way. Please owl. |