I've been trying to tell myself this wasn't coming for a while and failing, so I need to stop dragging my feet and cut the cord. I have been feeling very ambivalent (at best) about RP lately and to top that off my emotional state has not been the best due to various RL problems. I've been stuck in a rut and it had gotten to the point where wanting to do my characters here justice was adding a layer of stress to everything. The truth is, at this point in my life I don't have the emotional bandwidth to carry out my characters' arcs the way I had intended, and I am too much of a perfectionist to settle for "good enough", so I need to prioritise my mental health and bow out.
This game was my return to RP after several years away and it gave me back all the excitement about RP that I had lost, along with letting me meet many wonderful people and being able to carry out our vision for our characters together. I'm grateful to this game for all the good moments it has given me, but now the time has come to say goodbye. Both the players and the mods were incredibly welcoming when I was coming in a total stranger to everyone else in the game and this game will always have a special place in my heart.
Thank you for all these months, it's been real. Love you all ♥