"I'm fine." The lie was ridiculous when they both knew she wasn't fine. She hadn't been fine since Birkhoff died. And all of this was her way of punishing herself for not being there to protect him. She should have been there. Nikita would have. There was no way that Michael would have let that happen. But she just wasn't as strong as they were. Or at least, she didn't believe she was. She'd tried to kill herself before, basically in front of Nikita...and Nikita had saved her again. But Nikita wasn't here to save her now.