Re: Neil D/Lin A
Open relationship? [...] Is that what she told you we have? We never really specified. [...] Actually, I never did. I've kept everything vague, like a complete asshole.
As for why I want her there, because [...] I just do. I want her where I am. I like having her there. It is hard, and that's a pathetic excuse, but I'm not trying to make it one. Just the truth. [...] I was drunk when she told me she loved me. Completely wasted. I think part of me knew she said it, but I thought [...] maybe I was wrong. I told myself I might be, once I sobered up. I don't know how to say it back without her thinking I'm doing it out of obligation or something.
[...] I want to deserve her, though. If that makes any fucking sense.