No. No, I don't. No. No. What I want is to be able to fucking like who I want to like, however many fucking "whos" there are, & to not have that be some big fucking crime and mark against my motherfucking character. That's what I want. I'm not some fucking terrible person. And there's nothing wrong with having "ten balls in the air." It doesn't mean I feel one way or another about anyone. Or that I don't feel fucking anything. [...] Bah. Fuck it.