Re: Sam A/Louis D
I'm not going to convince you. I understand that. But I've also known him much longer than you have. Trust me when I say that this sort of behavior, this kind of avoidance and lying by omission, it's part of his character. He needs to shake it, or nothing will ever change, and he will keep hurting people. And he does need to seek help if he has a drinking problem. I will stay firm on that. I don't think he's a nightmare, or a terrible person, but I also won't excuse him from facing these things because I care about him. Quite the opposite.
He could have turned the drugs down. You fucked half the city because you were working through your recent sexual assault, if I recall. What reason can Neil muster to explain his behavior aside from his general malaise about everything on this earth, and an unwillingness to stir up trouble? What can he say to support enabling you when he should have helped you, and lying to both you and his horrid ex-girlfriend? That he didn't pursue you for taking his money says that he is generous, yes. It also says that he loves you, and he fears conflict. He isn't a saint just because you love him, Sam. No one is. You are free to be as angry as you like, it doesn't matter. I know he did wrong, and I know I want him to face it rather than lash out at me for trying to get him to confront it. He reacted like a man angry to have been found out for the petty cruelties he'd enacted, when he should have offered to apologize for them.