Re: Luke H./Evie S.
I guess we [...] didn't really have time. I mean, we were together in Seattle and New York, but then [...] we were apart, and we haven't had years yet. Maybe I'm just impatient, and expecting things to happen too fast.
[...] No, you're right. I can't make her do anything. We'd be fine right now if I could make all her fears go away. I keep telling her I'll be there, and I won't leave, but maybe I have to be patient enough to show her that I mean it instead of expecting her to just believe me. That's what you mean, right? Stand by my word, and be there no matter what. She's the most important thing in the world to me, Evie. Nothing else can compare, except Gus, but-- she's different. She's always been different.
It is frustrating, but when I get upset she thinks it's her. She thinks she makes me unhappy, and she doesn't believe me when I tell her that's not true. It's just-- I get frustrated because I feel like if I was enough, she wouldn't doubt me, and it's my fault. But that's probably not helping things either, is it? [...] I'm not going to give up. No matter how hard it is, or how long it takes, I won't.