So I'm guessing you're new here, since you appear to have done the same exact thing I did when I got this thing in the mail. Though, admittedly, your entry has more sense to it than mine, which was mostly about krakens. If you have any questions about how the fuck this stuff works, I would be happy to help you out/answer anything. Even if you did kill your mothe oh, Winnie wouldn't like this bah hum For example, you can lock your posts to specific people, like I did here.
I also see that you're a doctor who maybe is struggling with accepting all this magicky bullshit, and who thinks we all might be figments of his own cracked imagination. Such is not the case. No one can've thought of me. I'm way too clever, you see.