[...] I've given up more than once, in different ways. It's easy enough to give up on sanity if you're pushed far enough. And to be perfectly honest in a way I've never been with anyone but the doctors, by the time I'd started to give up on life itself, I was already in the hospital. It's amazing what they can pull you back from if you have the money to pay for it. [...] And if I gave up now, it would simply be a hassle to the people I know to have to deal with. [Yes, she has a rather morbid outlook at times.]