Evangeline Sablier is not broken, but please (handlewithcare) wrote in doors,
Re: Wren M/Evie S
Okay so picture me, only without ever having my father around, and without ever having been taken from the bad part of my life, and then spending the rest of my life all by myself being so mad all the time. But also add in the fact that I can still fight just the same way I can now.
Then then give me an axe and throw me in the woods with all kinds of bad guys.
And then put me inside Will's head.
He's not sleeping much and when he does it's not with me. And he doesn't want to talk to me about it, and when he does he just tells me that Red is making a mess of things. Sex is basically not happening, and he spends the majority of his time listening to her tell him that he's just going to do something awful to me. And then when I try and talk to her she doesn't want to believe me that I have this situation handled with him and that he's not what she thinks he is.
And I'm so mad. I'm mad at him for not sticking up for himself or us, and letting anyone talk to him that way because I've tried for a really damn long time to get him to see his value as a person and I thought we were making progress. And apparently that was a wasted effort because one feral bitch comes along and he thinks he's the devil incarnate all over again. And I'm really mad at her for seeping into this side of our lives, and I get what's wrong with her and she doesn't get that I get that. I can't help either one of them at all. And I'm so mad at myself for bringing him here because were happy in New York, and if I'd just held up my end of the bargain to look after my father's affairs for a "little while" I'd be back in school and we'd be painting our front door a different color every month. And instead we're living here in my father's apartment, while I do my father's job and I'm not very good at it. I know everyone is just humoring me and I can't stop anyway. I know I should, but I won't. And I'm so mad at my father for not being here to fucking fix this god damn mess.