[Sudden:] I care. I don't want to hurt anyone but no one seems to understand that. [More a scribble now, quick and hard-pressed.] I handed her over to a monster. That's what they say. The last detective in here called me a malicious accessory to her kidnapping, rape, and torture. But do you know what I thought I was doing? I was worried about my sister and I wanted him to sit with me and tell me it would be okay. And instead he offered to go check on her and I said yes because he had promised years ago to not hurt anyone, especially my family, if I was with him. So yes, it was my fault he was there and my fault he hurt her, but if I'd had any idea it was going to end like this, I
[And a sudden stop before she goes back and tries to cross out that entire paragraph.]
[Shaky.] I used to read quite a bit of nonfiction. But anything.