And I don't know, I've never been faced with that decision before! I'm sorry I can't sort out all your unanswered questions about the future for you. But I haven't actually lived it, you know.
[...] But venturing a guess, knowing what I know of me, the best answer I can settle on is 'because I wanted to.' So take that with a grain of salt if you like, but unless something changes my personality drastically in the next few years I don't usually do things I don't want to do unless it's chores or too much homework on a boring topic. It actually doesn't matter, because it doesn't help me not freak out my mum and dad when I go home. Especially if they're raising my kid because I'm dead. Focus on that instead. Work that riddle out. It would be more useful.