okay div, I need your help because I'm about to punch a baby in the face, or maybe end a relationship that is really important to me.
So, my friend and I want to get out of our houses really badly. My boyfriend wants to move out, but not as badly. Today we go look at the apartment together that we want (We've been searching for months, just not together), and when the agent asks us if we'd like to fill out an application, it's my boyfriend who immediately says "Sure, why not?" in a really enthusiastic way. I was surprised, because I thought he would want to wait, but since he wanted to and I know I'm ready and padded enough to, I was all for it.
So basically, my boyfriend will be able to make it and buy everything he needs, he won't be living in luxury but I said I'll take some of his rent for a while so he can save a little extra money.
We get a call saying we've been approved a few hours later, and with a green light meaning we don't have the pay the substantial amount of a security deposit we had been counting on. It was really surprising and made me happy. At this point... my boyfriend goes "I can't do it."
So he's backing out. And I know I can't find another roommate between now and the 7th (when we agreed to move in). I'm fucking livid as hell, because it was him who got this whole ball rolling and now... I don't know what to do. I don't want to call them and say nevermind, because I want to move out so badly, and so does my friend. I also don't want to piss them off because this is where I want to live when I do move out. But I don't think I could keep up both his share and my share for more than three months. What the hell do I do?
Also, the relationship part of the aspect... I feel betrayed and very frustrated with him. I don't know whether or not I can stay with him after this because it's just... kind of representative of what he might be like if we got married or some shit and then he just up and decides "Oh, I can't do it." I know I'm being irrational but it's just not a good time hormonally for me and I just wish he would have decided he "couldn't do it" BEFORE I paid the damn application fee and we settled everything.