"I... think I know what you mean. The shadow, she... I... really just wanted me to realize what I was doing to myself, I think. And I put everyone through so much pain because I couldn't follow my own advice and get over myself. I don't want to make everyone go through something like that again..."
Masami sighed, and she had to stop herself from sipping her tea just to hide her depressed, pensive expression.
"Oh, go ahead and sit down, if you want," Masami urged Renju upon noticing that she was still standing. "...If you want, I can make you some tea."