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Tweak says, "Get on with it!"

Yamada Kai [山田海] (the_nadeshiko) wrote in disappear_rpg,
@ 2010-05-18 17:35:00

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isao, kai

WHO: Kai and Isao.
WHAT: Eating as a cover for Kai/Isao meeting more people.
WHERE: Noodle Alley.
WHEN: Some afternoon after school.
WHY: "So I herd you promised me free food?" "U herd rite." /shot

Noodle Alley was about the same as Kai had remembered it, but it felt like an eternity had passed between now and when he'd last come here. Back in middle school, he'd never come in alone - it was always trailing after Masaya, eager to dive into their usual favorite shop and talk about the day and their plans to hang out that weekend.

In a short span of time, everything had changed, and he felt like a stranger standing alone in front of his old haunt.

Kai yawned, covering his mouth abesently (the spoils of staying up for the past week working on three costumes for the idol contest), and hoped that Isao would show up soon so he could go inside and sit down. Some hot soup was sure to wake him up.

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whenitsleeps
2010-06-25 09:32 am UTC (link)

"Then I guess it's all our fault and we failed everyone forever. We'll live the rest of our lives in shame if we aren't stoned to death by the masses first," he explained flatly before slurping up more of his ramen. "If that's the sort of thing you're expecting me to say, then that's pretty stupid. I'd say guilt tripping over something you can't control is more dangerous than my attitude."

Isao glanced over silently for a moment, but didn't really have anything more to say on the matter. Kai was apparently very serious based on his expression and that didn't really settle well with him. It was so pointless to worry so much about it. He was already thinking about his participation in that world more than he would have liked to, he didn't need to be told that he was potentially damning people for not wanting to hate himself if something went wrong. "Our best will have to be enough, because what else can we do? It's not our fault if the worst does happen. We're not the ones trying to... well, you know. We're not the bad guys, and our best not being enough isn't going to make us the bad guys. We're not the ones responsible regardless of what happens."

This was the same logic that he was comforting himself with and it just made sense to him. If there were some other creeps running around trying to kill people, why would he be at fault? Ever? He didn't start it and he was just there to help. Nothing made him responsible for what happened in that place. Was there anything better to say though?

"I mean, if something happened to me, I wouldn't blame you guys even if it was because of a mistake you made. At least you tried." Okay, well, that may not have been the most comforting thing either. It was the best attempt he had to offer.

Isao frowned to himself and tilted his bowl over to Kai. "Want to try some?"

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the_nadeshiko
2010-06-27 11:08 pm UTC (link)

Kai, sensing that this argument would only go nowhere and end in resentments if pushed, just shook his head and stayed quiet. "I...guess so," he said, his default statement when he just wanted an argument to end.

Ramen was a much better subject of discussion. "Yeah, thanks," he said, taking a taste. He didn't particularly like shio, but he figured it would do well to at least accept Isao's peace offering.

"Um, want some of mine?" he said hesitantly, offering his own bowl to Isao.

He drummed his fingers on the counter top, feeling spectacularly awkward and shrill now that his deepest worries had just been brushed off.

"...You never answered my question about the circus."

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