She watched him in silence for several long minutes before making a decision. "I want you tonight. I want you to hold me and kiss me and do everything you would do if we were together and nothing else mattered. I want you in my bed tonight. And in the morning, when you leave, don't look back. Don't watch me anymore. Find someone else whose happiness you can care about. Choose someone new." She didn't know how he was going to react, or if he would even do as she asked. But it was her decision, they could have one night and then nothing more.