"That's the worse that could happen to you, if you're lucky enough they might even transer you and you'd actually get to leave this place. But what about what would happen to me? My work is the only thing I have left to keep me going here. And people would lose all respect and trust in me if they knew I spent my down time with a guard, it doesn't matter if I want to be with you. Do you honestly think anyone really cares if I am happy? I have a job to do, that's it. Whether or not you buy into it, there is a sharp divide between the group you belong to and the one I do. I have much more to lose than you do." She watched him eat, relieved that he seemed to be enjoying it. At least that part of the evening wasn't a total loss.