“I don't know,” she answered honestly, though her voice was quiet.
She really didn't know. She wasn't sure if an answer to that would make her feel better or worse. And there was a very real concern over getting any of her hopes up over something that would just crush her completely in the end. Right now he could, so easily... without even having to touch her. But Ninkasi knew he would never want to do that so that make it even more difficult to deal with.
“I don't know how it would make me feel until I get to that point and I find out.” She breathed in deeply and closed her eyes. Upon exhale, she added, “it was how long before anything even got to this point...”