Re: Loki and Hermes and OPEN
“Don't think it's just me that's got a stick in their craw,” Loki said and took a drink of the beer, still watching the Frigg, Odin, Zeus, Hera circle. He sighed. He didn't want to think about it. It made it more raw, more real, when he realized that what had happened at Bragi's home had actually happened. It brought back a flood of unwanted memories involving his children, things he had only really started to come to terms with recently and seeing that pool of blood and his little sister so inconsolable was rather like tearing the band-aid off and prying the wound back open again.
There was some stupid saying about how you couldn't changed the past and that you wouldn't if you could. Loki knew that was bullshit and anyone that spouted that nonsense had never lost anyone before their time at a fault that was partially their own. There were many things Loki would change about his past, most importantly was that he wouldn't have gone to Aegir's feast. He would have stayed at home, with his family, and mourned Hod in his own way rather than going on a drunk rampage that ended a dead servant of Aegir's as his hand and an angry mob on his trail.
Fuck anyone that said that no one would want to change the past. And fuck anyone who ever said or believed that his sons needed to die, that it was written by the Norns or some ridiculous shit like that. Fuck them.
Loki bit back tears, again, which was becoming all too common a reaction to things lately and took another drink. “Bragi's missing, man,” he said quietly. “There was blood and quite a bit of it. No body. He's not dead, my daughter hasn't seen him. Idun called me first for help instead of Odin, I know he claims to believe that I had no hand in it, but I don't know that I trust him... or any of them, really, to not accuse me of...”
He couldn't say it. It made it more real. Bragi had been a friend, Idun -family; no matter what had happened over the years, Loki still would trust Bragi. Probably more than he should. Loki would never have done anything to hurt Bragi and if someone couldn't believe that, they should know that he would never have done anything to hurt Idun. Say what they might about him tricking her into getting kidnapped, Loki knew she was never in harm's way. And that had been between himself and Idun to reconcile. Which they had.