"I know. I don't either." He still didn't raise his head. He could barely stand to hear the strangeness of Regulus's voice; the look that went with it might drive Rabastan insane. How could he feel as if he wasn't the same person with Regulus as he was with everyone else? In this moment, he regretted ever having asked Rodolphus what he was planning on that night. Later, though...who knew?
"I love you," he said softly, hands curling into fists against the other boy's legs. "I love you so much."