Josie Rhydderch (coldinhergrave) wrote in darker_london, @ 2015-03-22 00:41:00 |
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Entry tags: | jinx, josie rhydderch |
I’m worn by the war in me (Josie, Jinx)
Stephie was annoyed that Josie wouldn't spend the rest of the night at the hospital with her, but Josie couldn't bear it. Maybe on another night she could have stayed, drinking hospital coffee and watching late night telly or slaughtering each other at whatever card game they both thought they could remember, but not tonight.
Stephie should have been enough but she wasn't. Josie felt a craving for Jinx that no one else could satisfy, and it wasn't just sex and she really hoped it wasn't for his soul... it didn't feel like that sort of craving. She was shaking with exhaustion and the shock of finding a body and sitting with it - him - watching him for what felt like hours before the helicopter arrived.
He'd been about the same age as her father, the body.
Josie didn't want to think about it. She wanted warmth and Jinx, she wanted to be held, she wanted someone to stroke her hair and maybe lie about how the world was sometimes okay.
And yeah - she shouldn't have been relying on Jinx for this because he was not really in any position to convince anyone else about the possible okay-ness of the world but he had been once, so maybe again? Maybe tonight?
Even before she talked to him she knew she wasn't going to ask him to comfort her, though. Josie couldn't ask for comfort, she had no idea how to phrase that even if she did feel able to lay all the wounded bits of her out there and let someone else gather them up. Nah... Nah she was just going to see if he wanted to come over to her hotel room.
At nearly two on a Saturday morning. Yeah, sure.
Josie borrowed a hospital car to get back to Victoria Lane. She wasn't going to take a taxi - she couldn't stand to be in a car with a stranger right now - and she didn't have the energy to fly. Josie parked across the street and turned the engine off, letting the quiet of the night seep in for a moment before she pulled out her phone and called him.