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Natasha Romanoff doesn't want to kill you (butwewill) wrote in crownplazaic,
@ 2020-12-18 13:08:00

Entry tags:

!network, connor, hawke, markus, natasha romanoff, trevor belmont

It's been just over four months since the first of us began to arrive here, and unfortunately we have yet to discover a way to control the comings and goings of this place; most of what happens is chalked up to the hotel's machinations, though we don't have definitive proof that it's behind every strange occurrence here.

For those of you who are newer, we do have a volunteer patrol schedule that you are welcome to talk to me if you'd like to be on it. My name is Natasha Romanoff. I also regularly offer training or sparring sessions with hand-to-hand combat, melee fighting, weapons use, and other areas. Let me know if you're interested in the patrol, classes, sparring, or all of the above.

[ooc: current watch schedule]

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	Markus \| Natasha jericholeader 2020-12-19 12:25 am UTC (link)
	You know me, Natasha. I would like to help and I don't need to sleep. Let me plug any gaps. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Markus \| Natasha butwewill 2020-12-19 12:37 am UTC (link)
	I didn't want to assume, but I did have a feeling you'd volunteer. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Markus \| Natasha jericholeader 2020-12-19 12:43 am UTC (link)
	I appreciate that. There's a lot to learn about here already, but when it comes to protecting those I love, I won't back down. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Markus \| Natasha butwewill 2020-12-19 12:45 am UTC (link)
	In that respect, you're not unlike most people here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Markus \| Natasha jericholeader 2020-12-19 01:01 am UTC (link)
	Love is a new emotion that I'm trying to come to terms with. I feel it could be incredibly powerful to draw upon. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Markus \| Natasha butwewill 2020-12-19 01:06 am UTC (link)
	It is. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Markus \| Natasha jericholeader 2020-12-19 01:22 am UTC (link)
	And not always positive, am I correct? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Markus \| Natasha butwewill 2020-12-19 01:31 am UTC (link)
	Unfortunately no. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Markus \| Natasha jericholeader 2020-12-19 01:41 am UTC (link)
	How do you know which is which? How do I know? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Markus \| Natasha butwewill 2020-12-19 01:51 am UTC (link)
	That's what living your life is for: figuring that out. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Markus \| Natasha jericholeader 2020-12-19 02:11 am UTC (link)
	I see. I think. What if you get it wrong? While you're figuring it out? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Markus \| Natasha butwewill 2020-12-19 02:24 am UTC (link)
	[...] Do you want me to tell you the truth, or do you want to feel better? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Markus \| Natasha jericholeader 2020-12-19 02:30 am UTC (link)
	I want the truth. Always. I asked you because I trust you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Markus | Natasha

butwewill
2020-12-19 04:51 am UTC (link)

If you get it wrong, you get it wrong. Not everyone who thinks they should be together really should. People fall out of love, people or feelings change, people move away or die. Sometimes people don't end up together when everything and everyone thinks that's what'll happen, because real life isn't a romcom or a romance novel or a fairy tale. That's another part of life. You don't have to get it right.

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	Markus \| Natasha jericholeader 2020-12-21 02:13 am UTC (link)
	Thank you. For your honest and candor. I love North. I want her to be happy, but if she isn't or can't be happy with me, then...it would hurt...but I would still want her happiness to proceed my own. Even if I need her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Markus \| Natasha butwewill 2020-12-21 02:33 am UTC (link)
	You're welcome. That's good. There are some humans who never figure that out. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Markus \| Natasha jericholeader 2020-12-21 02:39 am UTC (link)
	It seems odd to me that anyone would think otherwise. Perhaps this is the computer speaking. Not my heart. I fear that often. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Markus \| Natasha butwewill 2020-12-21 02:43 am UTC (link)
	Fear is a part of living and of loving. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Markus \| Natasha jericholeader 2020-12-21 02:51 am UTC (link)
	Natasha, is it wrong to fear for myself, as well as for the people I care about? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Markus \| Natasha butwewill 2020-12-21 02:53 am UTC (link)
	On the contrary, it's normal. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Markus \| Natasha jericholeader 2020-12-21 03:08 am UTC (link)
	I don't know if it's just my programming, but it feels indulgent. On the other hand, I want to live. So much! I don't care where I am, I want to be alive and to learn and be. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Markus \| Natasha butwewill 2020-12-21 03:13 am UTC (link)
	So give it a try here. Living, learning, and being. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Markus \| Natasha jericholeader 2020-12-21 04:44 am UTC (link)
	Will you promise me something? I ask this for myself only. If at any point I become inhumane, you'll tell me? Or stop me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Markus \| Natasha butwewill 2020-12-21 04:58 am UTC (link)
	Is there some way to stop you I should know about? (Reply to this) (Parent)

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