I know you don't want to hear from me and I honestly don't expect any kind of response from this. I'll be surprised if you ever talk to me again. But if you don't, I understand because I deserve a lot worse than just the silent treatment.
I'm sorry. It's all I can say and it's nowhere near enough. You tried to help me and I ignored it. I'm a class A douche bag asshole. I know that. Not even going to argue with anything else you might come up with to call me. Because I deserve all of it and more.
I'm not going to make any excuses. I'm not going to say the demon made me do it. I let it happen. I was weak and gave in and ruined everything because of it. All you tried to do was be my friend. I'm sorry that I hurt you and I fully intend to do my best to help Rachel fix things with the people she cares about. It's the least I can do.
I'm not asking for your forgiveness because I don't deserve it. I just want you to know that I really do feel completely and utterly horrible about the way I acted and I will do everything in my power to make sure that it never happens again.