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Tweak says, "YEAH!!"

Anastasia Steele (msanasteele) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2013-12-09 21:30:00

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~anastasia steele

So I'm really not sure why I broke out into song, but I wanted to apologize. It was probably a terrible voice, but that's not the point. I don't know what is coming over me lately and quite frankly I'm not sure what way I'm being pulled.

Is there anyone that I can talk to? For advice I mean.

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	uspllqueenwithq 2013-12-10 08:29 am UTC (link)
	I don't know how much I can help... but I'm here for you. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	msanasteele 2013-12-10 10:12 pm UTC (link)
	Thanks....I just....I miss him Quinn. But I can't do this to myself. He needs to change and I know that he won't. I'm beginning to realize, maybe he doesn't love me. But I miss him so much. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	uspllqueenwithq 2013-12-19 04:22 am UTC (link)
	I know you can't.... I wish I could punch him and make him want to be with you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	msanasteele 2013-12-22 02:21 pm UTC (link)
	Well, thanks for that. But That won't be necessary. I'm just trying to move on....but its so damn hard. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	ocddetective 2013-12-10 07:04 pm UTC (link)
	I told Raymond he didn't have to worry (Reply to this) (Thread)

	msanasteele 2013-12-10 10:13 pm UTC (link)
	Didn't have to worry about what exactly? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ana ocddetective 2013-12-10 10:28 pm UTC (link)
	About me mostly...he felt I was displacing his father (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Joe msanasteele 2013-12-10 10:40 pm UTC (link)
	My son is delusional. He has this thing about him existing, he could be coming from any part of the future other than where he came from with the rules. I'm sorry about him putting you through all of that though. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ana ocddetective 2013-12-10 10:43 pm UTC (link)
	I think I might have got him past that, so don't worry so much about it (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Joe msanasteele 2013-12-10 10:56 pm UTC (link)
	Thank you. I really do appreciate you doing that for him. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ana ocddetective 2013-12-10 11:14 pm UTC (link)
	Why torn though? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Joe msanasteele 2013-12-10 11:29 pm UTC (link)
	It's just that......I miss Christian. But I now that I can and will never be good enough for him and he won't change for me. I know it's better for it to be this way. I feel like I'm in a losing battle with myself. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ana ocddetective 2013-12-10 11:30 pm UTC (link)
	You are more than good enough...he however must be very foolish (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Joe msanasteele 2013-12-11 12:31 am UTC (link)
	I don't know about that. I'm not that experienced as he is in things. But, it was me that broke things off with him because I just didn't want to be depressed anymore. Now being without him, well, I'm beginning to fall back into that pattern. (Reply to this) (Parent)