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Idril Celebrindal | Itarillë (itarille) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2013-04-15 12:56:00

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[Tuor]
I think it would be interesting to meet one of your women from the woods! I should like to know her, at least in brief. My mother finds it very strange that Men are able to love and share themselves with more than one person.

And it is very strange. I could never imagine doing it myself. But it is very natural for humans isn't it?

It hurts them so much. Do you see it?

If they loved but once then they would not be so pained. The music is discordant.

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	tuor 2013-04-15 08:07 pm UTC (link)
	It is natural. But you must understand that when we die, we die forever, and there is no chance of us coming back. But I do not think I would like you to meet them, Itarillë. They are not important anymore. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	itarille 2013-04-15 08:12 pm UTC (link)
	I know it. But if you loved but once while you were both alive and then again when one is gone it would be less painful, I suppose. I don't know. It brings so much sorrow, is all. And they were important to you. And part of your life for a time, why should I deny that? Or why should you, for that matter. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tuor 2013-04-15 08:15 pm UTC (link)
	I am not sure that you understand. Some of them were part of my life for a few hours. Or a few weeks. It wasn't love, Itarillë, although we all parted on good terms. It was never love. It was never meant to be. None of them loved me, either. It was just...passion. Fulfilling needs. We did not bring each other sorrow. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	itarille 2013-04-15 08:21 pm UTC (link)
	It is very strange to imagine. To be with one for such a short time. Wasn't there a connection in your passion? You are right. I do not understand. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tuor 2013-04-15 08:22 pm UTC (link)
	We were attracted to each other, obviously. But more than that? No. We were not in love. Sex and love do not have to be the same thing, to Men. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	itarille 2013-04-15 08:24 pm UTC (link)
	How do you lay with someone you do not feel for? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tuor 2013-04-15 08:25 pm UTC (link)
	You just do? I don't know how to answer that, love. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	itarille 2013-04-15 08:33 pm UTC (link)
	Hm, I suppose if the need is great. And you were very young.. the need is greater when you are young, isn't it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tuor 2013-04-15 08:35 pm UTC (link)
	For some, perhaps. My need became greater when I met you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	itarille 2013-04-15 08:36 pm UTC (link)
	That pleases me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tuor 2013-04-15 08:38 pm UTC (link)
	And I am glad we have equal need. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	itarille 2013-04-15 08:47 pm UTC (link)
	Oh, I enjoy it. I did not know what desire was like until you, you know. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tuor 2013-04-15 08:50 pm UTC (link)
	Is that true? Elves do not even feel desire until they meet the one? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	itarille 2013-04-15 08:52 pm UTC (link)
	I did not, until I met you. I did not think of it, I had other occupations. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tuor 2013-04-16 12:15 am UTC (link)
	What of those who have loved, but are sundered from those they love? Do they feel desire towards others? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	itarille 2013-04-16 12:22 am UTC (link)
	Valar, no. The sexual act is marriage, and we marry for love. And we love but once, so it would be a lie to say we desire another once we have given our hearts. My father has never looked at another elf maid in that way. But Maeglin.. He looks at me oddly, though I am married. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tuor 2013-04-16 12:25 am UTC (link)
	I do not like Maeglin. I do not like him at all. And I have a feeling that it is very mutual. Your mother is beautiful. Your father would be a fool to look elsewhere, and he is not. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	itarille 2013-04-16 12:30 am UTC (link)
	His spirit is dark, and his thoughts darker. And not only because he is from Nan Elmoth. I adore my mother! I missed her so, and now she is returned to me. It will be good for Maedhros that she stay with him, don't you think? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tuor 2013-04-16 12:33 am UTC (link)
	I should have liked it had he stayed in Nan Elmoth. It is a strange thing for me to think of, Itarillë. I would not like you staying alone with a strange man were I not there. I would be jealous. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	itarille 2013-04-16 12:38 am UTC (link)
	Maedhros isn't strange. Though, aye, to you the Fëanorians must all be strange. They are a different breed. My mother has always known him, it seems. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tuor 2013-04-16 12:39 am UTC (link)
	And they have always been close? I thought that your father did not like the Fëanorians. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	itarille 2013-04-16 12:45 am UTC (link)
	Mm, always. And always my father has been distant with them. And hateful, since the ship burning at Losgar. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tuor 2013-04-16 12:46 am UTC (link)
	And yet your mother rooms with him! Has she no respect for her husband? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	itarille 2013-04-16 12:48 am UTC (link)
	Tuor! Of course she does. They are friends. Is she not allowed friends? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tuor 2013-04-16 12:48 am UTC (link)
	Of course she is! But she sleeps in his room! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	itarille 2013-04-16 12:49 am UTC (link)
	She is married! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tuor 2013-04-16 12:49 am UTC (link)
	Exactly why she should not be sleeping in another man's bed! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	itarille 2013-04-16 12:51 am UTC (link)
	Tuor! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tuor 2013-04-16 12:51 am UTC (link)
	What? This really is not strange to you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	itarille 2013-04-16 12:54 am UTC (link)
	Nay! It is not. She is married to my father, and Maedhros is very distinctly not interested in her in turn. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tuor 2013-04-16 12:55 am UTC (link)
	Would your father take it so lightly? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	itarille 2013-04-16 12:58 am UTC (link)
	Not now, because he is so angry with them. And not even out of jealousy, really. He trusts my mother and she him. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tuor 2013-04-16 01:00 am UTC (link)
	I wish I had known him when they were together. Knowing them both separately...I cannot imagine them as a couple. They are so different. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	itarille 2013-04-16 01:02 am UTC (link)
	Oh yes, they are as different as Laurelin and Telperion. But together they still make the Light. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tuor 2013-04-16 01:03 am UTC (link)
	What were they like, when you were a child? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	itarille 2013-04-16 01:08 am UTC (link)
	Happy. They were so beautiful and so in tune with each other. Not just husband and wife. But partners in all things. Artists! You can imagine. They would talk and talk and there was so much laughter. They supported each other, and allowed each other to make mistakes without reprimand or shame. Friends, you know, well before they were married. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tuor 2013-04-16 01:10 am UTC (link)
	I wish I had memories like yours, of my parents. I cannot even recall either of their faces. I love you, Itarillë. Like that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	itarille 2013-04-16 01:14 am UTC (link)
	I wish that I was as much of an artist as my mother, that I might paint the face of your father for you. I love you, though, so deeply. My dearest heart. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tuor 2013-04-16 01:17 am UTC (link)
	Our son will remember us. And remember how happy we are. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	itarille 2013-04-16 01:42 am UTC (link)
	Aye. I hope he will find love such as ours. (Reply to this) (Parent)