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Lothíriel, Queen of Rohan | Lord of the Rings (queenofrohan) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2013-03-05 01:57:00

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!open, ~micha delmare

I found this picture today, and while it is perhaps not the best art (and my ears do not look like that) it has made me desperately heartsick. What will I do if my time comes, and my husband still is not here?

[Filtered to Imrahil]

Father, are you willing to speak to me? I am troubled.

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	Lothíriel \| Imrahil imrahil 2013-03-05 07:02 am UTC (link)
	What do you need, child? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Lothíriel \| Imrahil queenofrohan 2013-03-05 07:02 am UTC (link)
	I am lonely. And frightened. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel \| Imrahil imrahil 2013-03-05 07:03 am UTC (link)
	What are you afraid of? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel \| Imrahil queenofrohan 2013-03-05 07:06 am UTC (link)
	That I shall be forced to live out my life here, without Éomer. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel \| Imrahil imrahil 2013-03-05 07:07 am UTC (link)
	It is a legitimate concern. None knows if he shall come. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel \| Imrahil queenofrohan 2013-03-05 07:08 am UTC (link)
	I cannot bear it, if he does not. I cannot bear it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel \| Imrahil imrahil 2013-03-05 07:09 am UTC (link)
	You have no choice. Do you wish to bring the child to term healthy? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel \| Imrahil queenofrohan 2013-03-05 07:11 am UTC (link)
	Yes, of course. But then... Elves die of grief. Can we? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel \| Imrahil imrahil 2013-03-05 07:13 am UTC (link)
	You are not going to die. You must bring the child to term and that requires strength. You have been here already and you will continue on. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel \| Imrahil queenofrohan 2013-03-05 07:15 am UTC (link)
	But it is so close here. I can't smell the breezes off the mountains, or hear the horses, and my room is so lonely and the bed so cold. How - father, I think I will die if I can never hear his voice again. He has the sweetest accent. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel \| Imrahil imrahil 2013-03-05 07:16 am UTC (link)
	You must. Be strong, child, and worry not about things you cannot hope to control. He will come or he will not, you will return or you will not. Those are the only choices and you must accept it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel \| Imrahil queenofrohan 2013-03-05 07:17 am UTC (link)
	I shall die! I shall certainly whither away in grief and despair! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel \| Imrahil imrahil 2013-03-05 07:18 am UTC (link)
	Enough of this nonsense. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel \| Imrahil queenofrohan 2013-03-05 07:20 am UTC (link)
	Can you not be kind just for once, father? I am alone and frightened and with child and I have no one here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel \| Imrahil imrahil 2013-03-05 07:21 am UTC (link)
	I understand but your hysterics won't make your situation any better. Nor will it bring your husband here. You must stay calm and think. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel \| Imrahil queenofrohan 2013-03-05 07:21 am UTC (link)
	But I do not even know what to think of. He is your friend. Perhaps you can bring him here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel \| Imrahil imrahil 2013-03-05 07:22 am UTC (link)
	If I knew how I would, Lothíriel. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Lothíriel \| Imrahil queenofrohan 2013-03-05 07:24 am UTC (link)
	I love him so. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel \| Imrahil imrahil 2013-03-05 07:25 am UTC (link)
	I believe you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Lothíriel | Imrahil

queenofrohan
2013-03-05 07:29 am UTC (link)

Once, not long after we were married, it was a lovely day in the spring, and be brought me this lovely bouquet of wildfires, father. I've never seen anything like them, so fresh and fragrant and bright. And he would take me out at night to see the stars. Father, did you ever go out to see the stars when you were in Edoras!? If you ride out, oh, a half an hour from it, it's...amazing.

It's nothing like in Dol Amroth, with all the lights from the city and the harbor. You look up and the whole sky is bright with them, you can't even tell them all apart anymore! And you lay back on the grass and you can almost feel the world turning all around you. And we would watch the stars and talk and laugh and - oh, father, I miss him so!!!

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	Lothíriel \| Imrahil imrahil 2013-03-05 07:32 am UTC (link)
	That's [...] remarkable. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Lothíriel | Imrahil

queenofrohan
2013-03-05 07:36 am UTC (link)

And some mornings, when it's raining, and it's just pouring down on Meduseld, we'll just lay in bed and talk for hours and hours and hours, and he listens, father, to everything I say. He cares. He wants to hear my opinions and my hopes and dreams and he smiles as I go on and on and I feel so silly, but whenever I talk he tells me to keep going, and I've told him things I've never told anyone, not even you and mother. And he remembers.

Like...I told him once how much I loved that rabbit stew Faramir made us a long time ago, just remembering when I was a little girl, and that day he sent hunters out and they caught rabbits and he had the cooks make rabbit stew for dinner, just for me, because I liked it. Isn't that sweet? Isn't he wonderful?

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	Lothíriel \| Imrahil imrahil 2013-03-05 07:44 am UTC (link)
	I am glad you found happiness in him, dear. Truly. Your mother would be much relieved. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Lothíriel | Imrahil

queenofrohan
2013-03-05 07:48 am UTC (link)

When I first saw Edoras, I did not think I would. I thought them savages, father, and I thought there could not possibly be a gentleman among them. But I was wrong. He is as much a gentleman as King Elessar, as much a noble man. He is kind and tender and loving and...I never could have dreamed it. I feel so beautiful when I'm with him, and I feel so special.

He tells me stories, old stories of Éorl the Young, and about the days when they came out of the North, and I share with him the stories you told me when I was little, and I braid his hair in the morning and sometimes he tries to braid mine, but he's very bad t it, father, very bad indeed.

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	Lothíriel \| Imrahil imrahil 2013-03-05 07:49 am UTC (link)
	It isn't the business of kings to braid the hair of women. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Lothíriel | Imrahil

queenofrohan
2013-03-05 07:54 am UTC (link)

Oh, no, of course not. But he does it of his own will, father, and who am I to stop him? He says my hair is like silk and he's never seen such pretty dark hair before, and he wants to play with it, so I let him, because I could never refuse him anything. I always have to redo it when he's done, but his fingers are so tender and soft that I don't mind.

And he's such a good and fair king. Everyone in Edoras loves him so much, and he shows great mercy, and has great pity for those who have suffered. He is a king who loves his people, and truly does not see himself much above them, but as a part of them. He is a hero, to them, and to me.

The ladies didn't speak to me at first, I don't think they like me, but recently they say that they have never seen him happier. And that he only has eyes for me.

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	Lothíriel \| Imrahil imrahil 2013-03-05 07:58 am UTC (link)
	I certainly hope so. He is your lord husband. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel \| Imrahil queenofrohan 2013-03-05 08:00 am UTC (link)
	But some men, I've heard...have other women. But I don't even want to think about that! Not ever. Am I boring you, father? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel \| Imrahil imrahil 2013-03-05 08:02 am UTC (link)
	It's a perfectly acceptable practice, daughter. ~~Some women take other men too~~ I am only preoccupied with deeper concerns. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel \| Imrahil queenofrohan 2013-03-05 08:04 am UTC (link)
	I wouldn't like it if he did. I would be very hurt. What concerns? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel \| Imrahil imrahil 2013-03-05 08:06 am UTC (link)
	I'll not discuss such particulars with you, as that is between you and your husband and I am neither of those things. But I am concerned about how we shall rear a child in this environment. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel \| Imrahil queenofrohan 2013-03-05 08:09 am UTC (link)
	Maybe Éomer will come and all will be fine. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel \| Imrahil imrahil 2013-03-05 08:10 am UTC (link)
	It is both your first child, it will be difficult no matter. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel \| Imrahil queenofrohan 2013-03-05 06:05 pm UTC (link)
	But easier if we were together. Love makes everything easier. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	living_history 2013-03-05 08:49 pm UTC (link)
	Sweetie I wish there was something I could say to make it easier for you. It sounds like you love your husband very much which is a wonderful thing. Try to take your mind off of it somehow? I know that isn't easy, but the heartache won't help you or your baby. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	queenofrohan 2013-03-05 11:24 pm UTC (link)
	I do love him. And I don't want to live here without him. We've only had eight months together, and it's not enough! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	living_history 2013-03-05 11:47 pm UTC (link)
	Give it time, maybe he'll show up soon? Meanwhile why don't you find something to distract you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	queenofrohan 2013-03-06 12:43 am UTC (link)
	I do not know what I would do. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	living_history 2013-03-06 12:46 am UTC (link)
	Learn a hobby maybe? Try something new? You can always come over and keep me company. Us pregnant ladies have to stick together. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	queenofrohan 2013-03-06 12:52 am UTC (link)
	I am not sure I would be good company. My father certainly doesn't think I am. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	living_history 2013-03-06 12:53 am UTC (link)
	Well he's a man, what does he know? He probably doesn't know what to say anyway. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	queenofrohan 2013-03-06 12:59 am UTC (link)
	He has never cared for me. He sold me to Éomer for some horses. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	living_history 2013-03-06 01:05 am UTC (link)
	Typical man of his time and class. You should have been free to marry whomever you wanted or not at all. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	queenofrohan 2013-03-06 01:15 am UTC (link)
	It turned out well for me, but it was not my choice. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	living_history 2013-03-06 01:22 am UTC (link)
	You were lucky. History is full of women who weren't. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	queenofrohan 2013-03-06 01:50 am UTC (link)
	I know. When I first reached Edoras, I was sure I would be one of them. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	genepunk 2013-03-06 01:40 am UTC (link)
	I have never known romantic love, but I'm sure your husband would not want you to grieve forever. Is there anything you enjoy doing? Perhaps it exists here on the island. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	queenofrohan 2013-03-06 01:50 am UTC (link)
	My husband is...I do not know what I can do without him. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	genepunk 2013-03-06 02:32 am UTC (link)
	What sorts of things did you enjoy before you met him, or that you like to do when he's busy with affairs of state? (Reply to this) (Parent)