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Tweak says, "may the time lords keep you"

Anthony Edward Barton-Stark (aedwardstark) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2013-02-16 14:19:00

Entry tags:

!closed, maryanne walker (oe), ~tony stark

Email to Maryanne

I really need some advice and I feel like you're the only person I can talk to because you know AJ so well.

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	maryanne_walker 2013-02-16 08:58 pm UTC (link)
	I... Don't actually know her that well. But what do you need advice on? (Reply to this) (Thread)

aedwardstark
2013-02-16 09:00 pm UTC (link)

Oh okay. Um....well. You know me anyway. So that'll help a little bit.

It hasn't even been two months yet and I've already told her I love her and we're living together and everything is just fantastic. And my brain is telling me that I need to do something that I haven't done but one other time and that was after we'd been dating for like 4 years. I don't know if I should listen to my brain or if I'm being completely ridiculous.

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	maryanne_walker 2013-02-16 09:50 pm UTC (link)
	Well, forget the brain for a minute. What does your gut say? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	aedwardstark 2013-02-16 09:51 pm UTC (link)
	Marry her right this minute. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2013-02-17 01:19 am UTC (link)
	And is this what your brain is telling you to do? ~~And I thought I had it b~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	aedwardstark 2013-02-17 01:39 am UTC (link)
	My brain is telling me it's way too soon and I'm stupid for even thinking about asking. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2013-02-17 03:56 am UTC (link)
	Is it to soon for you? Or do you think it's too soon for her? Or both? I mean you guys already live together. Asking her to marry you isn't exactly tying the knot. And tying the knot isn't really changing your situation much, besides giving her your last name- if that was the way she wanted to go. Would you loving her change at all whether you waited or not? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

aedwardstark
2013-02-17 04:05 am UTC (link)

I know I love her and I'm always going to love her and nothing shy of her trying to kill me is going to change that. And I really don't see her ever trying to kill me.

I'm actually afraid of losing her, Maryanne. This is her first relationship ever and I'm scared that later on down the road she's going to look back and decide that this was a great rough draft but she wants the final copy.

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maryanne_walker
2013-02-17 04:42 am UTC (link)

I can relate to that. While I'm probably not Daryl's first relationship ever.

But don't sell yourself short. You're a great guy Tony. I don't doubt you're doing the best you can by her. But don't propose to her because you're afraid you'll lose her. Do it because you think it's the right time for both of you.

Has anything happened to make you think you'd lose her?

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	aedwardstark 2013-02-17 04:50 am UTC (link)
	No. Just the tiny little insecure idiot voice in my head talking to me. It's in those moments when we're all snuggled together and just, happy and in love that I just want to propose right then and there. Is that weird? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2013-02-17 06:00 am UTC (link)
	I wasn't sure Tony Stark knew the definition of insecure. But no that's not weird at all. If that's... Actually very sweet. And maybe you should ask her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	aedwardstark 2013-02-17 02:11 pm UTC (link)
	You didn't know Howard and how he treated me. The confident swagger is all a facade, trust me. I think I might wait, though, until she's not in a cast and I'm not looking like Frankenstein's monster. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2013-02-18 03:42 am UTC (link)
	No but my Dad probably wasn't much better. ~~or worse~~ And I'm positive I don't have an insecure bone in my body anymore. But I also had some pretty awesome professors at Xaviers. Not something everyone gets with an upbringing like that. Is it really that bad? I mean think of the stories you could tell Grandchildren. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	aedwardstark 2013-02-18 04:03 am UTC (link)
	I had a whole bunch of people constantly comparing me to my father. Or wishing I was him. And I'm pretty sure Howard wished I was Cap. I don't even know. I just think that it might be something she would want to, shall we say, celebrate? And neither one of us is in much of a condition to do that right now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2013-02-18 06:47 am UTC (link)
	They were idiots Tony. Look at all you've achieved. You could stand at the top of that tower of yours and give them a big middle finger. You're better than your dad. And I'm not just saying that because I'm biased. Aaaah. You do know that there's ways around broken legs and scrapes right? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	aedwardstark 2013-02-18 06:51 am UTC (link)
	I know. But there's still a little insecure idiot in my head that likes to come to the front and make himself known every now and again. These are a bit more than scrapes on my arm. And I know there are ways around it. It's more of a "her being afraid of hurting me" kind of thing. And I don't want her to be afraid of hurting me. If that makes sense. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2013-02-18 07:32 am UTC (link)
	Well, you should give that voice the finger too. Yeah it does. But as long as you don't try to pick her up and do all sorts of kinky positions you should be fine. Hell, spooning is all about low impact, so her leg would be okay, and you could just lay with the good arm under her, and the bad one over. AND it has romantically sweet written all over it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	aedwardstark 2013-02-18 07:57 am UTC (link)
	Easier said than done. Spooning is pretty much how we sleep every night so we've got that down to a science. Either spooning or my head on her shoulder, one of the two. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2013-02-18 08:24 am UTC (link)
	Yeah yeah. I guess that voice probably does keep you humble. Well then, what's stopping you from taking it a step farther, than sleep. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	aedwardstark 2013-02-18 02:14 pm UTC (link)
	Among other things. Right now, just overall exhaustion on both our parts. But I think it's a good sign that I'm perfectly happy just snuggling with someone. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2013-02-19 04:35 am UTC (link)
	That is just to freaking adorable. And not something I'd ever thought I'd hear coming from you, to be honest. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	aedwardstark 2013-02-19 05:52 am UTC (link)
	Me either, in all honesty. I thought I'd be a manwhore to the end of my days. Guess finding the right girl changes anybody. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2013-02-19 06:28 am UTC (link)
	You do have a point. I can actually attest to something quite similar. I was tryin' real hard to be the train slut. Met Daryl, in what was supposed to be a one night stand. And he just went and ruined me for any other man since. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	aedwardstark 2013-02-19 06:35 am UTC (link)
	It's amazing how that happens, right? Life just says "Oh by the way, you're done being a slut now." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2013-02-19 08:20 am UTC (link)
	It is. And I'd do it all over again. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	aedwardstark 2013-02-19 02:12 pm UTC (link)
	Me too. It's a pretty awesome feeling. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2013-02-20 12:22 am UTC (link)
	It is. And it doesn't hurt that he's as sexy as all get out. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	aedwardstark 2013-02-20 02:29 am UTC (link)
	I wouldn't know about that but I do know that AJ is both sexy and adorable. She's sexydorable. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2013-02-20 03:33 am UTC (link)
	Look at you making up words. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	aedwardstark 2013-02-20 04:10 am UTC (link)
	It's Tonyese. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2013-02-20 06:40 am UTC (link)
	That sounds like a position, not a language. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	aedwardstark 2013-02-20 03:01 pm UTC (link)
	Oh well there's that too. But we won't get into that. :-) So, I guess it all comes down to you thinking I should go ahead and propose? Though I'll wait until this love bug passes so people don't assume that's why. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2013-02-21 09:34 am UTC (link)
	Hah! Now I want to ask for directions on this position Tony. ;P Yeah, I mean what's the worst that could happen? If you have the urge while you're laying up all cuddly and warm in bed, and it's not right after sexytime, I'd say it's an urge that's coming from all of you and not just the happy endorphin that's running through you after a really good orgasm. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	aedwardstark 2013-02-22 05:29 am UTC (link)
	I could tell you but then I'd have to kill you. Alright, cool. It comes on strongest first thing in the morning when I wake up before she does and just watch her sleep. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2013-02-22 05:44 am UTC (link)
	Are you sure the position alone wouldn't kill me? That is seriously just too sweet. I think i have a tooth ache. Can Jarvis scan for cavities? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	aedwardstark 2013-02-22 06:08 am UTC (link)
	It just might. It's pretty dangerous. Ha ha very funny. I just, love her that's all. I've never really felt like this for anybody before. ~~Not even Pepper~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2013-02-22 07:19 am UTC (link)
	I do live for danger. Or I did. Now I'm a Mom. Sex while Tim's sleeping is a little dangerous now. I know I was joking about it, but really I'm glad for you. It's good for everyone to have something like that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	aedwardstark 2013-02-23 03:58 pm UTC (link)
	I used to say that Danger was my middle name. But then that made me ADS and it ruined the whole joke. I'm actually really, genuinely truly happy. This is a new feeling for me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2013-02-24 05:11 am UTC (link)
	I probably shouldn't be giggling as hard as I am at that. But the first thing that came to mind was 'No ADS don't strike fear into my heart'. I'm happy for you then. (Reply to this) (Parent)