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Alexander, you don't have to suck it up and get used to it. I shouldn't have dumped that all on you, not then. I should have eased you into it if anything. I mean for Christ's sake I've been here for almost ten years, I remember what it was like to be thrown into somewhere new, torn from everything you knew. I panicked and I'm sorry for that too.
It's one of the greatest men alive, one of the men that stared being brought down for treason, and did not give one single fuck. You are still that man, you still get to live that life. It's just on hold for now, while you're here. You'll go back, eventually, and at least this will be a bad dream, at most you wont remember it at all, it'll be like you didn't miss a day.
You don't?
I wouldn't exactly say better, but more clear headed. Being stuck in a tin can full of fake everything, and grief, for more than a year does a number on your head.