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otherbuck (otherbuck) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2021-03-24 08:39:00

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!open, bucky barnes (au)

there is a ~~home~~ building in the park [location of one of the parks in Wheel 1]. it's overgrown with plants and weeds. no one lives there. is there objection if I do?

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	theboysandcrash 2021-03-24 01:30 pm UTC (link)
	It isn't my call, but I'd rather you not be anywhere near me or my family. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	otherbuck 2021-03-24 01:30 pm UTC (link)
	where are you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	theboysandcrash 2021-03-24 01:38 pm UTC (link)
	Wheel 1, Bel Amour. I don't care how big the Wheel is or how far our home is from that house... After what Higgs and your lot did to us.. They may be forgiving to what happened, given the circumstances. I am not. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	otherbuck 2021-03-24 01:41 pm UTC (link)
	I'll leave. ~~maybe five~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	theboysandcrash 2021-03-24 01:49 pm UTC (link)
	Gah... Fuck, man. I'm sorry. This isn't me. I shouldn't be blaming you for what Higgs did. It's just that I was drowning while vaguely watching what my Other was doing. That's not something that is easy to get over. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	otherbuck 2021-03-24 01:51 pm UTC (link)
	you don't need to get over it. there are other places. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	theboysandcrash 2021-03-24 02:00 pm UTC (link)
	No, man. It's cool. Stay there if you want. [Private] I take it you didn't know what was going to happen to us when you crossed over. Mine and Bonnie's did. They attacked us. And from I see you did not attack this Station's Bucky. I'm just taking out my frustrationschedule. Please, forgive me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private otherbuck 2021-03-24 02:08 pm UTC (link)
	there's nothing to forgive, I don't blame you. I'm still going to go somewhere else. I didn't know. but there was little remorse when I first found out either. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private theboysandcrash 2021-03-24 02:25 pm UTC (link)
	No, no. Take it, I'm sure the one who owned it before would be happy to have you live there. I was speaking from a place of anger, and I regret it. When you're done fixing it up, just invited over for dinner, hm? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private otherbuck 2021-03-24 02:27 pm UTC (link)
	it doesn't matter how much you'd want it to be otherwise, you wouldn't feel safe. not really. I can understand that. I'll come back later, when people are less wary. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private theboysandcrash 2021-03-25 02:39 am UTC (link)
	Look. Just do what you want. And yeah, I'm wary to trust you after what happened, but I won't actively come after you. Unless you start causing problems, which you don't seem to be so far. Then again, Higgs seemed like a decent guy at first, too. Just watch yourself. Or I will end you just as I did my Other, comprende? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private otherbuck 2021-03-25 03:15 am UTC (link)
	I'd rather not live my life under constant scruity and death threats. Especially when it's just some random nobody who apparently gets to decide if I'm good enough or not. There are other places to live (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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theboysandcrash
2021-03-26 02:36 am UTC (link)

~~Not a huge fan of the whole Nobody thing...~~

You're right, to you, I may be some nobody. I'm not the leader here, but I have family here on Wheel 1. And the further you and your ilk are from us, the better.

Have you ever heard the phrase: "That's not a threat, it's a promise."?

Yeah, there are literally thousands of other places to live. Why try to take over one that belonged to someone who lived here? Or, is that just what you are used to, taking over other peoples' lives?

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	Re: Private otherbuck 2021-03-26 08:23 am UTC (link)
	you're not even the first person to say it to me here. it does not make something not a threat. ~~because it's green and it's alive and I~~ why let a place be overrun and wasted when someone clearly put so much effort into making it a place to live? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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theboysandcrash
2021-03-26 09:27 am UTC (link)

Look, I'm not some hard ass who can't see beyond his own nose. It's just, what happened between me and my and Bonnie's Others, it was a different situation. Allow my anger towards that. Well, that and the whole Seam thing, but, I don't blame you for that.

I said it before, and I'll say it again~~: Man I love being a turt~~; I don't trust you right now, but you have an opportunity to earn that trust.

Take the house, keep it up. But be friendly, show us that we can be friendly with you?

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	Private otherbuck 2021-03-26 11:08 am UTC (link)
	I don't need friends and I'm tired of all of you telling me how to behave like I'm some child. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private theboysandcrash 2021-03-27 11:56 pm UTC (link)
	I'm not trying to tell you what to do, I was just extending an olive branch. Take, don't that's up to you. I was bring rude to you for no reason other than my own anger at a situation you had little to do with. Once again, I apologize for that. PTSD is a bitch, and I'm betting you know that as well. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private otherbuck 2021-03-28 01:32 am UTC (link)
	Is it still an olive branch if it comes with conditions? I don't care about rude but I'm tired of threats. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private theboysandcrash 2021-03-28 02:50 am UTC (link)
	Maybe? The only condition I have is that you not be a jerk and try to attack my family. But, I think that is just common decency. Then, like I said before, I'm not making threats. ~~If I wanted you dead, you would be~~ You may not want friends, that's cool with me, but I don't want any more enemies, do you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private otherbuck 2021-03-28 03:14 am UTC (link)
	that's the problem. what's considered common decency for someone who's been here and someone who was in a place like the one I grew up in are different things. I don't want to have to live under threats of death by rules I don't know. and you can say you're not making threats all you want, call it a promise, it doesn't change what it is. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private theboysandcrash 2021-03-28 06:23 am UTC (link)
	Okay, alright. I get it. ~~You act as though you're the only one who's struggled through their life...~~ I honestly wish I didn't, because I wouldn't wish what happened to either of us to ever have happened. Like I stated before, I made that threat out of a place of angry towards you when you had nothing to do with any of it. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Filter daddyissues_ 2021-03-24 01:37 pm UTC (link)
	Has he done something I'm not aware of? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Filter theboysandcrash 2021-03-24 01:39 pm UTC (link)
	Other than be complacent in the kidnapping of several of us, leaving us to perpetually drown for two months? Nothing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Filter daddyissues_ 2021-03-24 01:50 pm UTC (link)
	I don't think they knew about it but I'm not going to talk you out of your grudge. That second Bonnie is not going to come near me and especially not near my kids. But I get being desperate. I can overlook what my father has done. I guess we are not getting anymore neighbours. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Filter theboysandcrash 2021-03-24 01:56 pm UTC (link)
	You're right, they probably didn't know what happened to us. Except mine and Bonnie's, apparently. And I am right there with you, if I ever see her, it won't be fun for her, trust me. I'm still on edge over the whole, but I apologized to him.. Even if I don't trust him I shouldn't have said anything. It's not my place to tell him where to live. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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daddyissues_
2021-03-24 02:07 pm UTC (link)

I don't know if Bonnie did or not. But she tried to crawl under my skin and I won't stand for it.

Look, I won't tell you who to trust and who not to. I'm done with being tolerant and understanding of everyone and everything. In my original timeline, the people who were supposed to protect the island killed my mother and incarcerated my father. I'm the villain's daughter. I get it. Personally, I don't mind Miguel and Bucky. But I know I can speak from a place where, if they ever cause me or my family problems, my father is going to cause bigger problems for them. That said, I'm sure he will protect your family too.

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theboysandcrash
2021-03-24 02:23 pm UTC (link)

She shot a laser at the side of my head while I was about to fight my Other, she knew exactly what she was doing. Like I said, our next meeting will not be fun for her.

I won't trust him completely, not yet at least. And i know the sentiment. But, if he is just trying to live his life away from that place, who are we to stop him? My ex lived there, I know how bad it could have been. I didn't know all of that. I'm sorry..

And yeah, of they become a problem, we'll just become problem solvers. I already solved of one. I know your father will be there for almost any of us here. I don't think he's the villain most, including himself make him out to be.

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daddyissues_
2021-03-24 02:43 pm UTC (link)

Did she now? Well, I'm glad she's on my shitlist.

I don't mind giving him a chance for the same reason. Circumstances, they can change you. Most of us can be dangerous in the wrong situation.

Father picks his loyalty. He cares about the people here because I care about the people here, because his grandkids do, and because other people he cares about do. If Dad had his way, he wouldn't be living here. He finds it incredibly boring. It doesn't matter to me what that makes him. We all pick our loyalty. His picks are just a lot more narrow.

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theboysandcrash
2021-03-25 02:33 am UTC (link)

Oh, yeah. They ambushed me on the way home from getting stuff to make dinner. It wasn't fun, I don't blame our Bonnie, especially after seeing her in the Seam. It looked like they did worst to her than they did to me.

I know, that's why I'm not really angry at Bucky. Just at what happened, and him, Miguel, and Bonnie are my outlets. ~~And in a vastly different way, Scarl~~

That's fair, honestly I can't blame him, I'd rather be home, myself, even if my world is far more chaotic than this. He and I are be not on the best terms, but I do respect him. He's a good man(God), he just doesn't seem to realize it. Or maybe he does? I don't know I'm not a psychologist, I just punch the things that go bump in the night. Plus, Scar vouches for him, and I trust her more than anything.

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daddyissues_
2021-03-25 02:52 am UTC (link)

Wait, the original Bonnie ambushed you too?

Personally, I don't believe in the whole good man/bad man thing. It's stupid in my eyes. It's all very subjective. Besides, people like Bucky show you how much your upbringing and your situation matter. It's so much easier to be a 'good man' if you had an easy life. Dad is Dad. Either I like what he's doing or I don't. Same goes for Bucky and everyone else.

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theboysandcrash
2021-03-25 03:27 am UTC (link)

Sorry about that confusion! No, her Other and my Other attacked me. Which as I've heard is vastly different than what happened to everyone else that was taken.

I know, things are not always black and white, there is absolutely a grey area. I live there. But, I have to ask: is it easier to be a "good man" if you had an easy, carefree life? Because from what I've seen the ones with the easy lives are the ones to come out the worst. No adversity, no struggles, no challenges.

I never had an easy life, Kat. Sure, I had a loving adopted family, but nothing was ever easy for me. And I have come to see you haven't either. It wasn't until a few years ago that I was able to find some kind of peace within myself. I'm not blaming them for what happened, I'm only blaming them for being complacent to what happened, and ignorance is not excuse or reason.

I've been here for a while now, Kat, as stupid as you think the idea is; am I a 'bad' or 'good' man?

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daddyissues_
2021-03-25 07:56 am UTC (link)

Well, I hope that was just a singular case.

I think having had loving parents can make all the difference. They build confidence and they nudge you towards the path you eventually start to take. I'm not saying it's impossible to become someone I would deem dangerous but it makes it a lot less likely. A lot of questionable deeds are born out of desperation and once a boundary is crossed, it's easier to cross the next.

Didn't you yourself just say that you live in the grey area? Not that I care about making any such judgement. Even shades of grey are subjective. The good and bad suggest a moral truth. Morals are decided on.

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theboysandcrash
2021-03-26 02:32 am UTC (link)

So do I. But, like I said, if I ever see her again, it won't be fun times(Hint: I'm going to kill her). I'm more than willing to take her down for good.

My parentage is a bit... Complicated, Kat. I don't know who my "real" parents are. At this point in my life, I don't care to, never really did. They're long dead as far as I know. You've met my father, right? Erandur? "Cowboy Thor?" He's the one who trained me in martial arts, and somewhat in magic. As for my mother... Well, once more, things are complicated.

You're right, I did. I'm not good nor am I bad, I just do what I believe is right. Though, I do my best to take others opinions into the matter, because honestly who the hell am I to make the right judgements all the time? Other than the obvious two that I have made in my life. I'm only human, and as one, morality is a funny thing, isn't it?

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	Re: Filter daddyissues_ 2021-03-26 05:30 am UTC (link)
	I don't think many would cry. I have feeling we are approaching this conversation from different angles. You mostly see yourself and I am looking at the people around me and the ones who came here from the other station. The biggest question for me is: why did you ask me that question in the first place? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Filter theboysandcrash 2021-03-26 07:11 am UTC (link)
	Ha!! No, no one will! We are, I think. I know what happened to your son, as much as I hate to to bring that up.. That's part of the reason why I ~~want to kill~~ dislike any of the Others so much. I said it before, so I will say it again: ignorance is not an excuse for complacency. Gee, that's a good question in it self, isn't it? "Why?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Filter daddyissues_ 2021-03-26 01:40 pm UTC (link)
	You can't be complacent when you are ignorant. This man struggled for his life, I don't think you can put the burden on having to find out every single detail about someone on him. Asking a counter question doesn't answer mine. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Filter theboysandcrash 2021-03-28 12:02 am UTC (link)
	No, you're right. I shouldn't be taking my anger out on him. Like you said, for all we know none of them knew anything of Higgs' plans. They just wanted to survive, I get that. On point again, Kat. I asked because I wanted a ~~mostly~~ unbiased opinion. You were the first person I met here, and I also know that my first few months were turbulent, to say the least. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	dr_sleep 2021-03-24 01:53 pm UTC (link)
	No objection from me, and I live in the park. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	otherbuck 2021-03-24 02:10 pm UTC (link)
	maybe in a few months. but thank you. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	hypochondriac_ 2021-03-25 05:16 pm UTC (link)
	~~Did you know Higgs was gonna hurt Richie?~~ Are you gonna be spraying weed killer in the park? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	otherbuck 2021-03-26 08:21 am UTC (link)
	I was going to pull them by hand. but you don't have to worry, I'm going to go somewhere else. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hypochondriac_ 2021-03-26 07:15 pm UTC (link)
	Wherever you go - By hand is okay. It's best. You can't burn the inside of your nose that way. ~~Just don't come to little Asgard.~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	otherbuck 2021-03-27 08:56 am UTC (link)
	that's good to know. thank you. if you want.. I can clean the weeds out of the greenhouse still? maybe you and your friends can use it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hypochondriac_ 2021-03-27 06:12 pm UTC (link)
	You'd do that for us? Yeah, that'd be cool. Thanks. ~~As long as it's not a trick.~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	otherbuck 2021-03-27 09:13 pm UTC (link)
	yes. there's no point in the space being wasted. I'll finish by friday and I won't go in again after. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hypochondriac_ 2021-03-27 11:56 pm UTC (link)
	Okay. I'll let ~~the other losers~~ my friends know. Thanks again. (Reply to this) (Parent)