Edward
The stupid girl comment was because I thought that maybe it was one sided. That I could be imagining that you returned the feelings, because I wanted them there. And because you flirt, and are very good at it, so it was entirely possible that you are a natural flirt. A power which has seemed to grow stronger now that you can see, and have both hands. Which is not a compliant, simply an observation.
It simply was not meant to be. I was saddened by it, and am still when I think about her, how old she'd be. How very small she wasBut that feels like ages ago now. Jealousy is one thing, if given grounds, and I suppose I shouldn't have sought Robin out in the woods alone, but I had to see him. But you have my word, though given your story about her mother I would not blame you if you did not take me at it, if anything transpires, beyond flirting, between us I will do nothing that is worrying, or put doubt where there shouldn't be. In fact, there is not a single soul I flirt with now besides you.
Onto my thoughts my thoughts on Adele's Mother. She seemed like a very spiteful woman that was not worthy of your affections, and yet she had them. You were not a fool to care, she was cruel to stamp on your heart like a petulant child. Am I mistaken when I assume you loved her? And still do Adele? Because your actions do not speak of a scorned man. And I will humour her, I could do no less, because as you said a mother in heaven is much kinder than one that has escaped to Italy (and would rue the day should I ever run across her in a darkened ally). Though with this new door that has opened, I will need to send someone out that is good at finding things. Because there are books through that door, I assume as there were when we left, that are about each and every one of us. I have not seen any here, but that doesn't mean they aren't here. And you would not want her finding out that way. I realize that makes me sound crazy, but... well...
But, if she had stayed, and stayed your friend, there is a likelihood that in the fire... Well, I can't put it to words, it seems to cold to because of your feelings for her. But you not telling her probably saved her life.