Edward
It has not. Perhaps I am a stupid girl who is letting her heart take over her head, but even if that isn't how things are... I find myself endeared to you even more.
But you got the nail on the head. I made myself crazy once, and I can't do that again. But if. It would depend on things. When he returned the second time, I had been engaged to a man and I remained loyal to the man I promised myself to. Which had been a mistake. I became with child, his child, and he questioned my loyalty. He had thought I had lain with Robin after promising myself to him. I didn't end it, while I should have, Robin was already gone by that point. And I felt that it might do little Robin good so I stayed with him. But I didn't make plans to wed him, I had stopped looking at dresses, flowers... And then I lost the baby, and it became a thing of absolute convenience. So the short of it, as long as my loyalty is not questioned...
Now I will tell you what your story has told me. It tells me that you are incredibly kind, because I know the state of the asylums in England were bad, they couldn't be any better in a humid climate, you would just be trading icicles for mould. And marriages for the sake of land are not a stranger to me.
Also, you are quite romantic aren't you? Your heart got in the way of your head at some of it. You should have told the poor girl, as you did me. But heart and head.