You hurt me, Maryanne. I guess I hurt you too. We both have a temper. As does my father. I do not want to be its slave but it is a part of me and it belongs to me. Micha has started to help me deal with it but it will always be there.
If I am angered, I make decisions I regret later on. I traveled back in time because I was pissed off, I did not give my father a chance because of the same reason. Worrying about the consequences is what helps me keep it at bay.
I really struggled to keep my calm. You have proven what kind of temper you can have to me and it is a good thing that I managed to not level it with my own. If I would have wished it, I think he would have gone after you. I didn't which I am now grateful about. I am not sure what you think you are capable of and I am sure that if there is a war, my father will not be on the winning side. He has no friends. But there will be casualties - I will most likely be one of them and so will members of your family. We are in a confined space and often the nerves of the people here lie open and are wounded. My father's certainly are. He is a cunning and extremely powerful being. I am not saying that he is the most powerful being around but he is powerful enough to not be taken lightly.
This might sound very overdramatic but this has been my past. It is what I need to think about.
The point of all of this is that I fear your temper and what it might do to myself and my family. I fear my own temper and that of my father. It is something that keeps me safe, it is one of the reasons why I was able to keep my calm - at least remotely. As long as you do not understand this, I do not think we should have any major contact. This might seem very radical to you but it keeps me safe.