Maryanne
Oh my god, you are full of fear. I did not see that. It's not an ego that causes you to say these things, it's fear.
They are. But you need one for the other. If you are not afraid of the consequences of your behaviour, there is no need to be cautious. Then you could do what you want.
Why? You seem to be so proud of the fight you have in you, why are you not proud of the fear that sparked it? Fear makes you run quicker, jump higher and fight harder. And fear makes you be cautious. Without fear no one survives.