You might not be able to but others can. Then again, the future in this place is never written.
It's okay. My experiences made me stronger. There is one major fight a child leads, especially when it grows up with siblings and that is for the affection of his or parents. Mine was lost from the beginning. I never quite understood why until I found out about the adoption. My brothers were the pride in my adoptive father's eyes and I was the nuisance Holly, his wife, had talked him into adopting. No. Not a nuisance. A time bomb. Maybe even a trophy. He wasn't the only one judging me and watching my every step. It's hard for a child to comprehend when it is not told the reason.