Let me tell you one thing. I am not like them. It takes a lot of meditation to not revert. I have most of my memories back, and I know what that power felt like. I know what it felt like to rip my mind from the hold of someone like Snope.
I know what it's like to have that galaxy quake without having to say a word. Like you. And like you I loathe to go back. My history is written, I know what happens when I go back.
But beyond all that the urge to protect these people is stronger.