I...don't know....Admitting to anything but the path I was on feels like defeat--failure. The entire time I have been in this place I thought I would'play along' and 'make nice' until I returned to my true place...For a while I was successful. Then, [sigh] I started to like the game...and the players.
[He sounds hesitant to divulge such information.]
I have no optimism I will ever be like anyone else. Like you. The way you want me to be. I will always be a monster. Yet I loathe these nightmares and the idea of returning to the galaxy I left behind. It frightens me to say so.