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raven is mutant and proud ([info]whoeveryouwant) wrote in [info]colligo_threads,
@ 2012-04-21 20:00:00

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Entry tags:hank mccoy, raven xavier

WHO: Hank and Raven
WHAT: Raven decides it's time for a much-needed discussion.
WHEN: Late afternoon.
WHERE: The lab at the X-Mansion.
RATING: TBD
STATUS: In Progress

Although Raven had been invited to help bake, and decorate, the cake that Steph had offered to make for Charles and Erik, she had ultimately decided against it. It wasn't because Damian had also been invited. She had long since come to terms with the fact that she was going to have to share her best friend with the guy. It wasn't because she wasn't supportive of the decision to bake a cake or her brother and Erik's new relationship. She most definitely approved of both. It wasn't even because she couldn't bake. Since meeting and becoming friends with Steph, she had developed all sorts of new talents and an ability to make things in the kitchen was definitely one of them. No, the reason she had decided not to join in the baking was because of someone who wasn't at all associated with it in the first place.

Hank.

When he had first arrived in the city, Raven had been so happy to see him that she'd completely forgotten the fact that they were, technically, supposed to be on the opposite sides of things back home. She'd also forgotten how much his words, his claim that she was more beautiful in her human guise than as her natural self, had hurt her. She had simply been thrilled that he was finally here, had been so filled with hope at the idea of them continuing their friendship-that-might-be-something-more in a place where second chances happened ever day, that she had never even considered the notion that he might not feel the same way. Yet every time they talked, it seemed as if he was pushing her further away from him. First by telling her he didn't need her help in defending himself, when before he'd never had a problem with such a thing. And then, most recently, the fact that he'd seemed to grow frustrated with her when she'd announced Charles and Erik's secret to the city as a whole.

Raven wasn't stupid. She knew there were probably people who would have an issue with such a thing. No world was perfect and Colligo was certainly no exception. However she had never expected Hank to react as he had. She wasn't sure why. He was right, of course. He hadn't been in the current time period very long at all and such things simply weren't discussed in the time they were from. Particularly not in such an open, accepting fashion. But she had simply assumed he would be happy for her brother and Erik that, when he hadn't, she'd found herself growing angrier at him with each passing second.

And finally, when she'd lost count of how many times she'd lifted her weights and her arms ached from the exertion of the workout, she realized something with sudden, startling clarity.

Her anger wasn't because of Hank's inability to instantly be at ease with the thought of two men together. She was angry because somehow, somewhere, she had lost the ability to understand what he really meant. The bond that had formed during the training they'd undergone when preparing to take on Shaw and his followers had been strained to the point that it had snapped. And if she didn't do something right this instant, it might become completely beyond repair.

Knowing that the time had come to talk to him, face-to-face, and sort the whole thing out once and for all, Raven left the gym in such a rush that it took her less than five minutes to get from the wing where it was located to the lower levels of the house where the lab was tucked away. A record time, and she was certain the people she'd ran past probably thought there was a fire or someone was dead or dying, but she didn't care. She knew, if she didn't act now, she would lose her nerve and, possibly, his friendship forever.

She paused outside the door to the lab just long enough to draw in a few deep breaths and steady herself. Her heart was still hammering painfully in her chest as she finally straightened her spine, reached out, and knocked lightly on the door. Without bothering to wait for permission to enter - it was her house, she reminded herself stubbornly - she stepped inside and instantly set her sights on the tall, lanky, slightly awkward looking man who had been the center of her thoughts for the better part of the last few hours.

"Hey," she said quietly, not wanting to interrupt him with the blurting out of something that would ruin what he was working on. Shutting the door behind her, she took a few steps closer. "I think we need to talk."



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[info]notabozo
2012-04-22 02:40 am UTC (link)
It wasn't that Hank wasn't happy that Charles and Erik were happy, because his friend's being happy was certainly important to him and despite the fact that they were all from the same time, everyone else had been there quite a bit longer than him. Hank hadn't even been in Colligo for a full month; not to mention the 21st Century, which was extremely different from the sixties, but then again that was to be expected, because if everything was the same then he would have been greatly disappointed in the lack of advancement over the decades. Still, there was a lot to get used to. For instance, back home the idea of two men together certainly wouldn't have been talked about in public; let alone a public forum such as the Network and certainly not with such excitement as Raven had portrayed. As a person who had struggled most of his life to be accepted, he couldn't help but worry for his friends as to whether or not their relationship would be accepted by others in Colligo.

Raven was another obstacle when it came to attempting to start to fit in, in this time. He knew that he'd messed up the moment he'd told her that she was beautiful in her human guise as opposed to how she really looked and it wasn't that he didn't think she was beautiful any way she was, but it went right back to his fear of not being accepted. Raven was so comfortable with who she was and he admired that about her, but at the same time it scared him, because as much as he wanted to be accepted for his own mutation, he knew how cruel people could be and he didn't want anyone he cared about to be subjected to that; least of all Raven, Charles or Erik. The problem with Raven was that ever since their last encounter back home, he seemed to mess up every single time he opened his mouth around her; whether it was in person or the PDAs, which on a subconscious level may have been the reason for leaving his PDA in his room while he had been in the labs. If he couldn't talk to her then he couldn't mess up.

Of course he knew that not talking to her wasn't going to fix anything and he knew she deserved an apology, because honestly, it hadn't been the fact that she had been defending him that had made him uncomfortable that day, but the fact that he had been so worried over how Tim would react to his feet and it had put him on edge. Again, he'd regretted it right away and even more so when Charles had reprimanded him in his text, but again, he was just too worried about screwing up again to talk to her. He'd never cared about anyone as much as he had for Raven, in only the short time that they'd known each other, and as much as he hoped that she might like him, he wouldn't blame her if she gave up on him completely.

Despite the fact that she had told him not to take the serum that he'd invented back home, Hank had been attempting to work on another formula, seeing as how he had much more modern equipment to work with now and that was what he'd been doing when Raven had come into the lab. Turning at the sound of her voice, he adjusted his glasses and swallowed past the lump in his throat, "I suppose we should." He couldn't very well avoid her now.

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[info]whoeveryouwant
2012-04-22 02:53 am UTC (link)

Okay. She was here, he was here, and now there was no turning back or avoiding it. This was exactly what Raven had wanted, what she had set out to do. However now that it was finally happening, she felt as though she were frozen to the spot without the slightest clue what to say. Her mind, which had been racing as quickly as her heartbeat, screeched to a complete stop when he agreed that they should talk. For some reason, she thought it might have been easier if he had refused, or tried to stall. She wasn't sure why that would be easier but she knew that it probably would be. But that wasn't what was happening and she knew she needed to actually speak at some point or he was probably going to think she'd suffered some kind of brain damage.

Forcing herself to snap out of whatever had taken hold of her - be it nerves or simply her mind's total inability to face issues directly when so many times that route tended to blow up in her face - she cleared her throat and moved a few more inches further into the lab. An area that was clearly his space and that she was invading, even if it was in her home.

"This used to be easy," she finally said, the words coming out in a rush, with a soft sigh of frustration to follow. "We used to talk for hours, about everything and nothing. I..." She trailed off, her voice wavering slightly as her forehead crinkled a bit into a ghost of a frown born not of anger but rather confusion and far too much emotion to process all at once.

"I miss that, Hank," she stated after a second or two. "I know we don't see eye to eye on some things but I don't see why that needs to be the end of whatever it was we had. I don't understand why my being comfortable with who I am, and how I'm supposed to look, is such a deal breaker that you can't even talk to me anymore. I don't get it." She paused again, swallowing hard before asking quietly, "Do you?"

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[info]notabozo
2012-04-22 03:10 am UTC (link)
When Raven didn't speak after her initial statement that they had to talk, Hank began to get even more nervous when he had already been and honestly, he hadn't gotten any less nervous when she had finally begun to speak, because he was worried that whatever he said would upset her again and that was the last thing he wanted to do; after all, he wasn't sure how many times Charles would overlook it before he actually asked Hank to leave. That was probably such a far fetched consequence that it probably wouldn't happen, but Raven was Charles' sister and if he was going to support anyone it was going to be her.

When Raven finished speaking, Hank was silent for another few moments before he looked up at her, uncertainty clear in his gaze, "I...I miss you too, Raven. I just...after what I said to you...you were one of the first girls...people who accepted me for who I was and I hurt you." He dropped his gaze for a moment as he took a deep breath then looked back up at her, "And I'm sorry for that. For both times." He did miss sitting around with her for hours and talking about anything that came to mind and he wanted more than anything to have that back, but that was up to Raven; whether or not she wanted to give him another chance.

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[info]whoeveryouwant
2012-05-02 07:48 pm UTC (link)

It felt as though a weight had been lifted off her shoulders when Hank agreed that he'd missed her too. Obviously nothing had really been settled, and maybe it never would be entirely, but to know that she wasn't just sitting around, giving in to wishful thinking, helped a lot. Smiling ever so slightly, she shook her head in bemusement.

"You aren't the first person that's hurt me," she pointed out. "And though I definitely appreciate the apology, it's really not necessary. You're allowed your opinion as much as I'm allowed mine. They don't have to be one in the same." Still smiling, she moved closer to him, pausing when she was only a foot or so away this time. At this angle, she had to peer upward a bit to look him in the eye, but she didn't mind.

"If you want to try and get rid of your mutation, I'm not going to pretend I agree. I think you're perfect the way you are. But..." She paused and shrugged a bit. "It's your call to make. And if I can deal with my brother and his idealistic views of the world, I can deal with you wanting to change yourself too." She hesitated, tacking on a quick, "Just... promise me you'll be careful when you experiment, okay? Run some tests, do all that... science-y stuff that you do before injecting yourself with it."

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[info]notabozo
2012-05-09 01:04 am UTC (link)
Hank knew she wasn't just trying to make him feel better about the things he'd said to her, but whether he was the first or the hundredth person who had hurt her, Hank still felt awful about it; the look on her face after he'd said what he has still haunted him and he knew that it would until he made it up to her, "Raven, I still feel awful about the way I treated you. About what I said to you back home." Just because Hank was afraid of how others would judge him for his mutation didn't mean that Raven had to endure the same thing from him or anyone.

When she was only a foot or so away from him, Hank's heart sped up slightly as he recalled the near kiss they'd shared when he had been taking her blood back home; a moment that felt so long ago now despite it only being about a month or so ago for Hank, "I promise that if I succeed with my serum that I'll test it before using it on myself."

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